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2020.09.25 00:06 Saca312 [FS][USA][CAN] VOUCHED SALE - Supreme x Mike Hill Snake Longsleeves, Replica AirPods, Nike "Flyknit" Shoes, Adidas Shorts

What's good repfam! Back here with new items and reduced prices on the old! It's been 72 hours since my original post. Selling off items to help pay the college bills!
For reference, I'm currently 6'2 at 180 lbs in a muscular build. Most S-M fit me real well when I was a 6'2 165lbs slim build, and M fits me well currently. For most XL clothing on here, I was 230-240lbs when it fit decently.
VOUCHED SELLER, SO CASHAPP, VENMO, OR PAYPAL FRlENDS AND FAMlLY ONLY. *
Shipping primarily within the Continental USA. Can easily ship to CAN - just a simple matter of having additional shipping fees at a reasonable price that will be calculated depending on item and weight :)
Items will be shipped within two business days after purchase. Typically, I ship the day of or the very next day unless something drastic happens.
Prices are negotiable. Low-ball offers will be ignored.
With that being said, here's what's up for grabs:
Categories:
1 Rep Items
3 Retail Items
TAGGED PIC + Timestamp

REPS

1.) $7 OFF NORM PRICE! BRAND NEW REPLICA AIRPODS - $30 $23 Shipped
Pic of Everything
Box
Airpod Case
AirPods
Pretty much hit it at a steal of a discount! Get these on the cheap!
Get you some wireless headphones for a decent price! They work quite well with decent sound quality. Hit the gym or go on a run while playing your favorite music with these babies. Comes With Box, Charging Cord, AirPods, Case, and Manual.

RETAIL

1.) Supreme x Mike Hill Snake Trap Long Sleeve Tee Heather Grey Size M TTS - $59 Shipped
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Quality retail Supreme for I'm deciding to sell for the repfam! Loved this piece personally, but ended up having to move on. It's in good condition and has plenty of life left! Nothing more to say other than this is an amazing piece that you'll love and enjoy! Went for $200 last sale on StockX, so get this at a fraction of that! Includes a Supreme Shopping bag as well!
2.) REDUCED EVEN FURTHER: Grey Nike Freeruns "Flyknit" Size 13 (Fits more like a true US size 12) - $28 $19.15 $17.15 Shipped
PIC ALBUM
Had some buyers flake. Oh well. I'll discount these for the biggest steal yet for y'all :)
Get you some running shoes! These are in 5/10 condition and have been used quite a bit, but still very much has some life in them! Go on a few morning jogs in these or hike up a few trails while feeling like you're walking on clouds! Bought for retail around $130+, so get them for the price of walmart shoes :).
3.) Adidas Grey Shorts Size L TTS - $14 Shipped
PIC
Get you some quality athletic shorts for a steal of a price! Comfortable material wicks off sweat during your hardest grinds and allows you the comfort and mobility to compete on the court or the weight room! Perfect for casual wear or exercise routines you may do!
-* Paypal invoice can be accommodated for, however, please note a paypal fee (around 3%) and an additional $5 convenience fee will be added onto whatever item is purchased. Preference is given to other forms of payment. :)
Feel free to PM/Chat me concerning any questions you may have :)
Thank you very much for looking! PM, chat, or comment if interested!
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2020.09.24 23:20 AbsurdPigment I've had a very bad week. How do I handle this?

Just hasn't been a good one.
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Tough therapy session which makes my sensory processing system go nuts.
I live with a very loud housemate. She does not have a good sense of how loud she is talking. She doesn't use earbuds for online class either, which I have yet to talk to her about. She also keeps eating my food.
Another housemate smokes weed at night. The smoke comes into my room, and while I have no problem with weed, I hate smelling it when I'm trying to sleep. Around 1am.
Neighbors are very loud. I keep my windows open to help ventilate the weed smoke, but have to close them because they're so loud. On a Wednesday night. From 12-2am.
My housemate left her window open and my cat got out twice. The second time he stayed out all night. I slept outside in the backyard just so he could find me. I didn't really sleep though.
I had a test and three projects due. One group project was really infuriating because of a group-mate.
I had to pay my therapist a fuck ton of money because I got behind on payments. She also missed my text message asking for emotional support in a situation. Kinda feels bad.
I got into a fight with my landlord because he is so god damn defensive that me asking if he could text my house in a group chat instead of relying on one person to relay information to everyone was *an attack*. Also went into a tirade about how I can't expect the house to "look new" - something that was triggered by nothing I said. I like how shabby it is. I like the funkiness. So he just fuckin' went off. Horribly infuriating 40 minute phone call.
Plumbers that said they'd be done in 4 days took over three weeks. They'd just walk in and out with telling up when they were coming or going. Wouldn't consistently wear masks. I get triggered hearing a male voice when I'm unaware that they're in the house.
My really nice bike was stolen from the backyard. The plumbers moved it from its hidden spot to get access to the pipes. They did not tell me, and I guess someone saw my bike and stole it. I don't know how to navigate this. I'm not particularly mad at them. I just told my landlord, and I'm sure I'm going to get a lecture about how it wasn't their responsibility to ensure the safety of my bike. And he's right. It was just a bit insensitive.
I'll have to read that message and deal with it. But I'm still upset. That sucks. I don't like that someone came into my backyard and did that. I don't like that they moved my bike without asking or telling me. I don't like it. For now, I'm going to turn off my phone so I don't have to deal with my landlord's condescending lecture. Just going to have to swallow my pride and the cost.
Our Psych lab ended up being about eating disorders. We had to take a quiz assessing our relationship with food, and put that data into a shared google spreadsheet. I was the second highest score.
I've been body-checking a lot. My chin fat is just too much. Just started calorie counting again.
I have to keep going back into my past for assignments for this one class. On Monday I scrolled through and found pictures of the gifts I gave to the people who became my abusers. I was such a good friend, and they still decided to ruin my life.
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I have to do a ton of work now. I'm in the library, just staring at my workload. I feel like shit, and I also don't want to give a shit. I don't want to be angry and sad about all this. I just want to go numb and go forward.
I also want to punch a wall. What are you supposed to do? How are you supposed to this handle this without breaking down?
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2020.09.24 17:57 nitin22222 My Secret story i need to get off my chest!

I need to get this off my chest. The story involves me and two muslim sisters in my native place. before you judge me, yes my conscience is clear. So, a couple years back when i was staying alone in my house there, i developed feelings for the elder sister, by eye contacts mostly because they are not allowed to go out of the house considering the religious backgeound and strict upbringing. one day i get a message on my facebook account by the name of their father, which was in turn operated by the younger sister( by this time i did not know that it is from the younger one). she did not create an account by her name because it would obviously result in her being scolded by the family members, typical rural muslim families. she had those mesmerising eyes which you can't ignore. Finding me on facebook was easy for her. we started chatting, which eventually lead to we discussing about our physical needs, she was a virgin because of the above mentioned reasons. it was winter season, temperature being around 8-9 degree celcius (very cold) and to my advantage there was fog everywhere, so reluctantly i agreed to go to her place and i decided to meet her on her terrace ( in rural areas as you know, there are individual bungalows ). Fearing getting caught, the next day i told a couple of my male friends my issue on the condition of keeping it confidential. The plan was to meet her at her terrace aroung 12 am midnight and that 2 of my friends would stay on each side of the street on which her house is, to be distraction in case of any problem. Apparently, being 22 years of age and being virgin, her sexual desires were very high. i went to her house, due to the fog, the visibility was merely 7-8 metres. i am thankfully 6 feet, found a way to climb over a 7-8 feet wall of the bathroom( the bathroom being outside the house), and a 3 foot wall to get up to the terrace (i realised she was the younger sister that morning and not the elder one. seemed like we connected well over texts, so i decided to go with the plan.). The softest lips i have ever kissed till date, we made love for around 40 mns after which i decided to leave. while climbing down, remember the 3 foot long wall? well it was made of plaster, what happened next was a nightmare. imagine you are sleeping, rural india, pin drop silence, imagine your terrace wall falling down on the roof.. BANG!! Everyone woke up, i jumped that 7 foot wall like it was a single step in the stairs, grabbed my flip flops on my hand, not wasting time on wearing them, Just ran towards my home like all hell broke loose. Man! i would beat usain bolt on that 200 metre run!. at that moment i understood what my friends were doing on each side of the road. they started screaming Run! Run! to eac other till someone from the house saw them and ran on their bikes to get them confused for theives. i was scared the family members would see her on the terrace but surprisingly she instincively went straight into the washroom and pretended nothing happened. We had deleted all messages on facebook if someone checked her mobile phone, perhaps a fool proof plan. After a Few days, after much wait, i got access to the elder sisters mobile number because she was incharge of turning on/off the switch that connects to the well. i would not dare go to that terrace again, we never made love but we would have the longest makeout sessions in that switch room. before this, i stopped replying to the younger sister as she was getting very possessive about me . hence, my conscience is clear. This is my secret story. Had to cut out interesting details, but the post would get so long!
Maybe i missed out on some details which may lead to some guys not believing it, feel free to ask i would be happy to clear all doubts. This does not mean i want to force people to believe it since that is not the agenda here.
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2020.09.24 16:38 Charybdis523 I am 28 years old, make $65,000, live in upstate New York and work in the nonprofit sector

Introduction: I’m Asian-American, first generation, grew up low-income. My career has been focused on financial wellness and wealth building for low-income communities. I’ve learned alot about finances, but not sure I would’ve sought out the same info at such depth if work wasn't the catalyst.
SECTION ONE: ASSETS AND DEBT
Net Worth: -$2,100
Retirement: $39,000. Before my Master’s, balance was ~$50k, accumulated in 3 years post college. Maxed out Roth IRA and 401k for 2 of those years.
Equity: None. My partner K bought a house for us recently, still under his name only.
Savings Accounts: $650
Checking Accounts: $250
Credit Card Debt: $0
Student Loan Debt: $42,000. $22k federal, $20k owed to siblings.
College: No debt, thanks to a full-ride scholarship I won. I had part-time jobs and spent most of my money on clothes. My brother sent me $1000 every year, and other siblings gifted me money during holidays.
Grad school: All my current debt. I dumped savings and some retirement funds into tuition. Even with a scholarship of $20k/year, I had to borrow 40k. Professional school is expensive, y’all. I had part-time jobs, and all earnings went to living expenses.
Other Debt: $0
Inheritance: Me - none.
Partner – The house down payment was a gift from his parents. He’ll also get a significant inheritance from eventually. His parents grew up poor but aren't anymore, and have always been frugal. The life his parents gave him is what I’d like to give my kids if I have them: set them up well without spoiling.
My parents worked so hard to support my family. When I tried to give them my paychecks in high school, they told me to keep them for myself. When I bought gifts for them during holidays, they told me I should spend for myself. My siblings (including me) who spent the most time in the US, and thus could benefit the most long-term, are all financially stable. My older siblings still struggle and won’t accept help. I remember all the time how lucky I am to have a supportive family.
Other Related:
Before March, I lived in a 2 bed apartment in a big city with a roommate. I planned to visit K for Spring Break but moved in with him instead due to quarantine. We intended for this to happen after my graduation, but the timeline was sped up. We never shared finances before but now he was taking care of all our living expenses. K didn’t mind and was happy to. I wouldn’t have cared if our situations were flipped. But I felt guilty having someone else pay so much for me. And for so long I was a strong, independent woman and it felt like I was giving up some of that.
But I realized that we are partners in many ways, including this. We try to make life easier for each other, and K was doing that for me just as I do for him. Besides, my independence was enabled by the safety net of my family. I aim to provide the same for K, for my nephews/nieces, and for my kids if I have them – and I certainly won’t consider them “less independent” for taking those opportunities. Seriously, this has been a main point of my whole career! Gotta apply it to myself.
Partner’s Net Worth: $200,000+
SECTION TWO: INCOME
Income Progression: I was an English and Classics major who had tried some teaching and considered law school. I really blossomed skills-wise at my first post-college job, and learned so much from many wonderful people. Also, the nonprofit field allows me to be a jack of all trades due to their funding constraints. Turns out I’m a master of none, and that's okay (;
2015 - $15,000 for 10-month term
2016 - $48,000 annual, promotion
2017 - $52,000 annual, promotion
Start grad school
2018 - $40/hour, consultant
2019 - picked up $20/hr for university
End grad school
2020 - $65,000 annual, strategy-related role
After graduation this year I was unemployed for 3 months. In August my current employer offered me a short-term, full-time position and hope to keep me long-term. Crossing my fingers, as I’m very inspired by their mission and impact. Regarding salary, if I stayed in/gone back to expensive cities, I would’ve sought a higher range. I’m now in a low COL town so adjusted accordingly.
Monthly Take Home: $4,481. Taxes taken out, no benefits.
Partner’s Monthly Take Home: ~$7,000. Deductions for health insurance (for both of us), 401k, HSA, all that jazz. This has been his salary for 2 years. Before this, a grad school stipend (~$35k) for many years.
SECTION THREE: MONTHLY EXPENSES
Our finances are joint now and we consult each other on buys at $100+.
Mortgage: $700
Property Taxes: $800
Home & Car Insurance: $45
Savings & Investment: Whatever’s left after expenses.
Debt Payments: $0. I'll funnel all my earnings into this (after Roth IRA). But it won’t be enough before the grace period expires and interest is capitalized on my federal loans. Anything left owed to the feds will be covered by K’s savings and paid off before 2021. Then I’ll focus on paying my siblings back.
Donations: $625
Gas/Electric/Heat: Unknown, these bills are lying around somewhere.
Trash: $15
Wifi: $50
Phone: $0. K is on a family plan, and I’m on one with my siblings.
Groceries: $600 average
Subscriptions: Amazon Prime $10. Netflix and Hulu 0, using family plans. Google Play Music Family $15.
Gym Membership: $60 for K's membership. Will get mine once we’re comfortable going again.
Pet: Unknown, haven't summed up all the cat things.
Miscellaneous (eating out, hobbies, gifts, random purchases, etc.): $200 average
SECTION FOUR: THE DIARY
Day 1, Sunday
8:45 am After waking up and going back to sleep a few times, I finally just get up. I do my morning routine: wash face, brush teeth, take pill, contacts, ring, brush hair, moisturizer.
My partner K is playing with the kitty, and I join. We adopted her not long ago, so she’s still acclimating. K calls her a scaredy cat because she’s skittish about everything. She's now in her carrier, in catloaf position (paws tucked and hidden, so she looks like a bread loaf) and not budging.
9:20 I check on my plants and do some planty things. I decide I want crepes for breakfast, and defrost 2 leftovers in the oven. As I wait, I scan through old starred emails. One is from Chase, offering a complimentary Shoprunner one year membership. Why not? The website tells me I already have an account, of course. But I don’t know my password and have to reset. I’m hungry and will get back to this.
I eat the first crepe like normal but everything falls out, so the 2nd gets the pancake treatment. With apples and maple syrup, they’re delicious.
Shoprunner finally works. I haven’t been spending much online, but if I do I’ll get free shipping (I never buy online without it).
12:00 pm We eat defrosted pizza for lunch. We’ve been watching Brooklyn 99 during meals, but today we watch Adventure Time. I give him my crusts as usual, since I don’t like them. Afterwards, K asks me to crack his back by standing on it. I manage to do so without totally breaking his back. Then I putz around while he packs for a work trip. I make him coffee and give him his daily portion of cookies (he asked me to hide and portion them). K leaves to finish up work at his office. I play Tetris on the Switch.
4:15 I take a shower. Fall weather hit one day last week with zero transition, and it’s been much cooler since, and the toasty water is so nice. K gets home and finishes packing. We drive out to his company lot so he can get the rental car. We hug goodbye. It feels like our long distance days again ); I've gotten very used to seeing him all day every day thanks to quarantine. He calls me before I get home - his car wasn’t delivered due to some miscommunication, so I have to drop him off at the rental center.
7:40 I feed the kitty and finally start cooking. I make pork chops seared in a cast iron pan, finished in the oven. I flavor it with salt, pepper, thyme, coriander, dill, and sage. I love cooking and being able to experiment so much. Sometimes it turn out a bit funny but hey, that's how I learn. I eat a pork chop with leftover jasmine rice.
My favorite Youtube channel has a new video. I don’t follow many but enjoy Safiya Nygaard’s content so much. The new one is about acrylic pour art. I think I'd feel bad about all the paint, but the finished pieces look so cool! I actually like her “bad attempts” more. I should try acrylics; I've mostly used watercolors but might be missing out on a medium I'll like.
9:30 K texts that he’s reached the hotel. It’s not that long a road trip and unlikely anything bad will happen, but I still worry. I’m glad he arrived okay.
9:45 I cut my fingernails. They grow like weeds, so I snip them every week otherwise they poke my eyeballs when removing contacts. I play Hearthstone on my phone during this. Then bedtime. My nightly routine: brush teeth, mouthwash, rotate fittonia plant, ring off, contacts out, lip balm, lotion.
11:30 Okay, I’m still awake, browsing online. I set my alarm for 7:30 am and sleep.
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Day 2, Monday
7:30 am Alarm wakes me. Snooze. Alarm again. I get up and feed the cat.
7:55 I put on a work outfit: green pleated maxi skirt and a mint green top with an orange, pink, and green floral pattern. Pink cardigan too since the office is cool.
My style is the most "feminine" and "loud" at this office - lots of colors and patterns, and silhouettes that are stereotypically feminine. Sometimes I wonder if I should tone myself down. Whether people might take me more seriously professionally if I wore more pants, muted colors and patterns. But this is what I enjoy, and if people underestimate me based on how I dress, that's on them, not me. I'm fortunate that previous coworkers have shown confidence in my abilities (even when I had little confidence) that I never had to "tone down” myself to get more respect.
8:00 Pack for work using a swag bag they gave me, which I know is cheesy but fits all my things well. Grab Greek yogurt and spoon for breakfast. I need to attach a voided check to my direct deposit form, so I add that. Got badge and mask. Mist my maranta. Shoes on – I pick Sketchers since my maxi will hide them mostly. But no one will notice my shoes, per the wise words of Gustav in Ever After!
8:10 While backing out, I spot trash bags on my neighbors' curbs - it's trash day. Usually my partner takes out the trash, so I debate waiting until next week. Then I tell myself the trash will get gross and stinky, even if in plastic bags, and also to be an adult. I roll the can to the curb. Upon arrival at work, I find a parking spot where I don't have to back up to get out. I'm always paranoid about hitting things/people, even with plenty of lot space. I haven't actually hit anything/one (that I know of) but still.
8:40 My coworker responds about the office book club. They've been reading White Fragility. I stop by her office and get the book, yay! The group is meeting again next week so I need to catch up. I then eat my yogurt. As my boss walks by me, she compliments my skirt (:
10:00 Meeting with boss and person she's been waiting to chat with for awhile, via phone. Person is shocked and unhappy at our update, and ends the call fast. Me and boss chat about a realization I had this morning, that will likely change one of the main things we want to do for my project. Whether this is a good thing or not is TBD. I go refill my tea at the hot water dispenser, so far away at the other end of the office. Note to self: bring own mug and stop hogging this office one. Then I find a thing that could be a big breakthough, maybe. If other things go a certain way, perhaps.
11:45 I head out. I'm doing half days remote because I don't feel like prepping lunches to bring. Also I feel bad about leaving kitty alone all day (dunno if she cares). It's sunny but chilly outside. I'll definitely want all remote when it gets colder.
12:00 pm Wegman’s pit stop. They stock new plants every week or so. I debate a cute succulent for $5, but as I put it down, accidentally brush against a leaf and break it. Now I have to get it! I also buy a huge cat grass for $4, to distract kitty from eating my ponytail palm.
12:20 I drop into a local flower shop for the first plant I’ve ever ordered, a rattlesnake calathea. So pretty (: There are more leaves than expected for this size pot and price. This florist sells small plants for only $5 and take orders. (Very dangerous, but I limited myself to one plant...for now.)
Going home, I have to do a loop because the main road has one-way sections, arg. I think I have a lot of driving anxiety, probably because I spent 8 years using mostly public transportation and walking.
12:35 Instant ramen and diet grapefruit soda for lunch, classic adult meal. I think that the best standard brand is Mama ramen, and my favorite flavor is the creamy shrimp tom yum. The best spicy ramen are the Samyang spicy chicken ones. I usually add dried seaweed, but not feeling it today.
I later set up work in our office room. It’s so nice to have my own desk. I was using K’s since he no longer works from home, but prefer mine with my own pictures and knick-knacks, like my squishy stress bunny. I try to access files through remote desktop but can’t. IT puts me on hold. Is it worth driving back into work? Now the line tells me to leave a voicemail; I do, but I’d rather just keep holding.
2:55 An IT person calls me back. As I’m telling him what’s wrong, I realize I never logged into remote VPN, so of course I had no access. I apologize to him, feeling bad I wasted his time. This must be like the jokes about people not plugging things in yet expecting them to work. IT sends an email saying the ticket was resolved. My silliness is documented for eternity.
Meat stick (prosciutto-wrapped mozzarella) for consolation. Back to work, more munchies so I eat an apple too.
5:40 K and I chat and agree to play Don’t Starve Together later, which we started a few days ago. Dinner is pork chop, rice, defrosted mixed veggies. My friend and I talk over the phone as I eat. We grew up in the same hometown, and she's been my bestie for a long time. I can’t recall a time when we weren’t friends! (She does - when we were very young. I just have bad memory.) She’s recently had very exciting things happen, and I love hearing her life updates. She's one of few friends I'm close enough with that we speak very candidly about everything.
7:30 Kitty joins me on the living room couch. Her sudden epiphany: she can knead my blanket, and does for a long time. I pet her while she kneads. Then dinner for the cat. I also check on my new plants and water them.
As I go outside to repot a plant, I see a small package on the porch. Addressed from a friend and labeled "fragile". It’s a ring dish! So lovely and thoughtful, and I was just thinking about getting one. I text my friend many thanks and place it in the bathroom.
8:40 K and I play Don’t Starve Together on our computers. About 5 minutes in, we’re suddenly attacked by scary dogs and I die ): I’m a ghostie for awhile as he attempts to revive me, but it’s a struggle. We decide to play Stardew Valley next time, since this game more difficult than we thought it’d be. I play Animal Crossing afterwards. A new neighbor moved in, a cute koala named Alice!
11:30 Okay, time for bed. Ugh, I keep browsing instead of sleeping.
Total $15.10
Day 3, Tuesday
8:00 am Alarm goes off. I push snooze. Then I remember kitty is waiting for food, so instead get up and feed her. I eat yogurt and get work started.
9:50 Break time! I drive to the Habitat for Humanity ReStore nearby. I haven’t gone in the past two weeks, but we got some amazing furniture deals here. Like our beautiful 10x13 living room rug for only $50. The thrift stores around here have actual thrift store prices. Our friends recently got a coffee table from here that was exactly what we're looking for. I’m happy they got it but also kind of jealous.
I find a pretty glazed square saucer ($0.50, plus another 25% off), an adorable panda mug ($1.00), and a mug painted with a lovely floral pattern ($0.50) but a chip on the lip. Doesn’t matter since these mugs will be pots.
10:40: Home and work, more research on how to do all the things. I get a meat stick and prep ramen. I am so cold‼ I wrap our living room blanket around me like a shawl. This was an Amazon gift last year from K. He searched “softest blanket” and said everyone recommended this one. It is indeed incredibly soft, and I love it so much. I’m shall walk around and sit like this. Thermostat says it’s 64 degrees. Hmm, maybe my body is just rebelling against adapting to lower temps.
12:40 I finally eat lunch. I got distracted by work. The ramen warms me up some, but my fingers and feet are still cold. It’s far too early for me to break out mittens, right? My new succulent’s plastic pot fits perfectly into the flower mug. Panda mug is less of a home run; it’s a large sphere but the opening is just a bit too small. I’ll just repot another plant directly into it. I replace the dining plate under the grass with the square saucer. I check my money tree. I tend to ignore it, as it does pretty well left alone. Its new leaves got so big!
1:30 I use Teams chat for the first time. A colleague tells me some people who received my earlier mass email were confused about a certain line and emailed her assuming a more positive future outcome. I send out a clarifying email that the news is indeed as bad as it sounds...and people are not happy about that now. I just feel guilty I can’t make things better.
4:00 The itchy bumps on my finger are multiplying. I have some isolated eczema. Years ago, it was all over my hand and severe, but with medication slowly receded and now pops up in small spots. A similar bump on my leg that keeps coming back (only when I scratch it…I know, I know). I put on medicated ointment.
4:20 Someone replied all to my clarification email, pointedly questioning our decisions. Yikes! I ponder how to respond, then decide to do that tomorrow instead, when I can fully refrain from being snarky.
I go repot my haworthia into the panda mug, which should be the last time I repot her. I’m doing this out on the porch, squatting over pots with a spoon and bag of dirt, and wonder if people are judging me. Another package out here, from my hometown friend. It says Edible Arrangements, ooh. K calls me as I start opening it, so I narrate the process for him. It’s strawberries dipped in chocolate! I eat one right away, so yummy. I text my friend thanks and eat more. Must save some, reluctantly, for K.
6:00 I do some clean up. I’ve been leaving dishes, wrappers, and such strewn about. Without K here, I’m less prompt because no one can see my shame. Mini brush to sweep crumbs and such off counters, then regular broom for the kitchen floor because I made it messy in just 2 days.
The cat is eating the grass!
6:30 I consider exercising. We made sandbags with contractor bags and lawn pebbles, but I'm not workouts. Before quarantine, I went to the gym 3x a week (starting last Sept) even in bitter winter. I really enjoyed feeling myself get stronger. Now I’m not nearly as disciplined. My partner is much better about it, even doing cardio in between lifting days. Maybe I’ll work out tomorrow.
Instead, I wash rice and Instant Pot it for dinner, then take a shower. I feel so warm afterwards! I’m determined to keep myself that way.
7:00 The cat joins me on the couch for some blanket kneading. She does her bass purr, which disturbed me when I first heard it because it was so strange and so deep that I thought it might be a distress sound. I hear it during pets, and sometimes she’ll sit far away from us and just rumble like that. Eventually dinner time for kitty, then for me. I eat a pork chop with rice and leftover mixed veggies. I put the rice in the fridge! I forgot several times and had to throw it away the next day. I know rice is cheap, but I hate wasting food like that. Some Animal Crossing after. One of my neighbors is moving out tomorrow :(
11:35 It’s so late. I do my nightly routine and go to bed.
Total $2.02
Day 3, Wednesday
8:15 am I finally get up and go through my morning routine. Putting on my ring is easier to remember when it’s out on a dish instead of hidden in a crowded basket. I feed kitty and start work. My boss responded to the reply all email yesterday evening. Whew! I do think that was better coming from her instead of me the newbie.
9:00 I look up how to access someone else’s calendar on Outlook, because I need to see my bosses’ schedule. Microsoft’s directions seem to apply to the online version, and other search results match it. I click around Outlook instead, and figure it out that way. I mist my prayer plant and eat a yogurt.
9:50 To the ReStore. I go in and out of the house 3 times because I forgot my keys, donation box, and phone. Rihanna's Skin comes on from my playlist as I drive. Yeees, I haven't heard this in a while and sing along enthusiastically.
I find 4 ramekins for $2.00. This will complete the set I picked up here before. K wants them for baking but doesn’t think he’d use them enough to justify a new set. I also nab a ceramic thing made for an unknown purpose ($0.50), to be a nice small pot.
10:35 Home, shrouded in the blanket as I type up research. Ramen again for lunch. I could bring it into work, but then my coworkers might judge and/or pity me for eating like a college student.
12:40 pm I get dressed for the office. Weather app says it's 70s outside, so I put on a light pink maxi skirt with a geometric pattern, a light orange/coral top with a floral print, and teal cardigan. I end up walking instead of driving since it's nice out. I immediately feel happier and refreshed! I think I’ve been grumpy from feeling so cold in the house. Like hangry, except…crumpy.
1:00 A sign outside a bakery says today’s special is carrot cake cupcake. Nooooo, I love carrot cake but I’m trying not to buy treats. But this bakery has such good cupcakes…I go in and buy one for $3.00. It’s difficult to resist these when they’re so cheap compared to prices in larger cities. I eat the cupcake at work and it is the perfect dessert.
1:50 The internet stops functioning as I'm writing up a form online to submit ): Instead, I call someone to break the bad news to since there's no email listed for them. I really dislike calling people I’ve never met, since I rely so much on expressions and body language. Several tea treks this afternoon.
4:00 I text a friend about helping me lift a dresser out of the garage later. I bought a lovely wood dresser for $150 from FB last month to replace our current dinky one, but it needs TLC. I’ve been procrastinating hard but am afraid this is the last week of nice weather, so want to fix it up now. Plus it can be a nice surprise for K.
4:30 As I’m leaving, some coworkers chat to me! I’m so happy – I’m a shy person at work, mostly because I feel like I have to absorb all the info possible and then I can start to say things, otherwise I’ll make a fool of myself. This shouldn't apply to general chatter, but somehow does for me. It’s really nice talking to them.
5:00 At home, NY driver’s license came in the mail. I feel so official now! Except, this isn’t a REAL ID and I thought I was getting one. The NY webpage says to bring more documents to the DMV for one one. I guess since I won’t be flying soon, not a big deal. And I can always use a passport, though I dislike carrying that unless really needed.
5:35 My friend comes over and we carry the dresser from the garage to the driveway. He points out that some of the backing is reinforced with staples (???) instead of nails. Ah well, this was cheap. I start off by sanding edges where the veneer is scratched or started to peel; harder to do precisely than videos show. Then a long, long time putting wood filler in those spots. It’s hard getting it to stick without bits falling off. Okay, not so sure how well this will turn out :/ I leave it to dry overnight, so tomorrow I can stain
7:00 After a hot shower, I put on my workout leggings that have a fleece lining. Not to workout, just for the warmth. Desperate times! I know that after winter, these temps will feel like beach weather. But right now I’m cold. I go feed the kitty. Then I remember I was supposed to send a form for work and do so, so very late :(
8:00 Dinner. Pork chop, leftover rice, defrosted corn. K and I chat as I eat. We call it a night early though. I finally get the dishwasher going; I left so many dirty dishes sitting around this week. I play Animal Crossing. I search for a new neighbor and pick the first one on a mystery island, a horse named Papi. He really likes nature, so I feel we’ll jive there.
9:00 A couple of friends text yes for a group video call next week. We know each other from grad school but are all in different states now. Many things have been happening for everyone, so I’m excited to toast to them!
10:00 I actually want to go up to bed this time, but the kitty is snuggled next to me. I’ve been petting her for at least 30 mins. But finally we go upstairs for the night. I scroll through subreddits before sleeping.
Total $5.94
Day 4, Thursday
7:45 I get up and do morning stuff, then feed the cat. I try to turn on my work computer but it does nothing until I charge it. Yogurt for breakfast, then burrito myself in the blanket for work.
9:50 ReStore break. I accidentally walk out in flip flops instead of sneakers but am too lazy to switch. Oh well, I’ll be that person in socks and sandals.
At the store, I immediately grab these beautiful blue glazed pots, labeled $4 for the set. There’s also a soft, pinkish white pillow. But it doesn’t fit colors I want for any room; nah, I’d regret it later. I find a pretty set of Japanese-style art, depicting varied pots and flowers. The frames are beat up though. I take a picture to send to K later to see if he likes them. But on my last circle about, the paintings have disappeared. That’s okay, someone else will enjoy them.
K might declare a pot moratorium when he gets home, as he’s threatened before. Hah, he’ll be using the car anyways so I can’t even go thrifting then.
10:55 Home and back to work. I get an email from Accounting that there’s a check for me. First one, woo! They told me it would be Thursdays, but I’m so used to Fridays that this was a surprise.
11:40 Hot ramen, mmm. While waiting for them to poof, I check my plants. I browse FB and subreddits while eating. Then upstairs to dress. Today, a navy and white triangle print blouse to pair with my black and white feather print pants. I also break out a nice pair of sneaker-like shoes, in grey suede.
1:45 Back in the office, many rounds of hot leaf juice. I pick up my paycheck, and Accounting confirms my next will be deposited. I also stop by HR to ask how I can set up Zoom meetings.
4:00 I drive to the credit union to deposit checks. They close too early, in my opinion. How do people who don’t have flexible workplaces find time to use them?
K recently added me to his account. My bank has no branch here, though I got them years ago specifically because they were national and I wanted access wherever I went in the US :/ I don’t like paying ATM fees, so K has been withdrawing cash if needed. I’m also not comfortable using a bank app out of paranoia that someone might steal my phone and siphon my account. I think my bank accounts and Social Security number are the only things the tech giants don’t have, so I guard them as my precious.
4:30 Home for more work in my blanket.
5:30 K and I chat. We decide to see if our friends are available for board games this weekend, and if not, watch a movie. I suddenly realize I didn’t defrost a protein for dinner, and even putting it out now won’t be enough time to unfreeze it. Nooo. I end our call to work on the dresser (but lie to him about why).
I put stain on a few samples of filler. I got it matched at a local hardware store, but not sure if the stain will look like its label image. Wait, the label says to leave the stain for 4-6 hours before using a 2nd coat…well, I can keep sanding. Except there's definitely too much wood filler on these spots, because I’m doing one corner for so long.
6:23 I go inside and eat leftover corn and a meat stick for dinner. I’m crumpy again. And sad this won't be done by the time K gets back. I decide to make a latte, likely a bad idea so late. But I want something cozy. I mix in cocoa powder and honey with it. We have a grinder, aeropress, and French press (for guests) but use Wegman’s beans and a cheap milk frother. Occasionally we get nicer beans at a local shop, and my partner eventually wants to upgrade to a real fancy grinder. The coffee set up captures well our spending habits.
7:00 The cat stole my half-eaten meat stick‼ She flees, but stops to eat her prize, so I snatch it from her clutches. K had asked me if she’d be unrecognizable when he gets back, and I think so. Very bold now. After I feed her, she goes downstairs and meows a lot. I will not be summoned, cat! XD I stay here until she’s back in the room, quiet, and then I go downstairs. I eat chocolate strawberries and browse FB and subreddits about plants, finances, and furnishing homes. I should read for the book club. Eh.
9:15 I find out online there’s Fall Festival on the main street on Saturday! I’m excited; I was visiting last year when it happened. There were hay bales and scarecrows and tractors and kids getting faces painted. I wasn’t sure they'd have it this year, but glad that local businesses will get a huge boost in sales.
I also remember we got a beautiful bouquet of dried flowers from there, now still our living room and only shed a bit during the year. Since they last for so long, I want a set for the guest bedroom.
9:30 I play Tetris. A couple of bad rounds, but I get 6th once! Pretty good. I cross some animals, and say hello to Papi. Then I go empty the rest of the dishwasher and load it again, and sweep up ramen bits. I don’t want all this to linger longer if I feel lazy tomorrow. K sometimes says, “Good job, past self!” out loud to acknowledge what he did in the past that make the present less stressful. I really like that, so now I try to approach things more that way.
11:25 I go to bed. But I have a throbbing caffeine headache, and my stomach feels hollow. Why did I do this to myself? I read some “messy” Money Diaries from the Drama Watch Roundup to tire out my brain. It takes a long time for me to fall asleep.
Total $4.32
Day 6, Friday
7:00 am I wake up needing to pee. Can't go back to sleep due to residual headache. I do my morning routine and feed the kitty. I have to boot up my work laptop. Its battery runs out so quickly; it’s a bit annoying that I won’t be able to go anywhere without the charger. Oh well. I start filling in a spreadsheet to organize what I’ve been researching.
I am blanket. Blanket is me. (Or is it I?)
I email my Boss about setting up a Zoom call for us and another person. Then tea time. I use a loose chai from Wegman’s. It’s really good; I’m glad their generic stuff tends to be decent quality.
9:50 To the ReStore. I almost forget my mask but luckily don’t. They’re strict about them, thankfully. I saw them kick out a man who tried to go in without one. He kept arguing that he had the right not to. Of course, and there are consequences to that. This is also a charity shop and volunteer run, so they probably care less about pissing off a few people. I feel bad for the businesses and employees who end up with potential losses from booting noncompliant customers. It’s not a dilemma I’d want to face.
Today I find a large peachy pillow, $3. Glad I didn’t get the other, since this fits better and is so soft. I also get two glass vases of similar height and shape but one has a vertical pattern ($1.00, with additional 50% off) while the other has a wavy pattern ($1.00, with additional 25% off). Close enough, for the guest bedroom flowers. And I finally drop off the box.
10:45 I reach Wegman’s to grab a few things. Two 10-pack meat sticks (12.29 each) and two 2-liter bottles of diet grapefruit soda ($0.75 each). I also look at the fish, since they stock fresh ones on Fridays and are usually sold out by evening. I love whole fish and would eat it every day if I could. I pick 2 porgies ($6.99/lb) and ask them to descale and trim the fish but keep the heads. I’ll get both fish heads tonight since K never eats them. I’m so excited for dinner!
More work at home. My boss CCs me on an email about me sent privately to her and few others. Her response is amazing and is a virtual mike drop. I appreciate her so much. I do a speedy lunch, ramen and soda. And speedy dressing: same pants as yesterday, sheer burgundy top, teal cardigan, the suede shoes. I finally bring my mug! It’s bigger so less tea trips.
2:00 Meeting with boss and another person our org works closely with. The prep I did is not useful, because the conversation turns in a different direction than expected.
4:15 I get home early and do last minute cleaning. K texted earlier that he should arrive by 6:00.
5:00 I haven’t heard kitty in a while, and get worried. I walk around calling her, and she meows in response, from our master bed. She rushes out once I open the door.
5:45 Finish work and take a shower. Kitty gets many pets in apology for accidenally imprisoning her. I manage to snip two of her nails, but she escapes before I can do the rest. Then the house alarm goes off. K is back! He says the house is chilly – okay I’m not going crazy XD He is skeptical that it’s truly 65 degrees in here and turns on the heat. The cat hides, shy again with K here. I tell him it’s probably his haircut. We unload the rental car and return it.
7:00 Dinner prep. I season the fish and wrap them in aluminum foil for the oven. This time I use salt, pepper, garlic powder, onion powder, paprika, and coriander. I chop up mushrooms to roast too.
The fish and veggies end up delicious! I do warn K about the little stomach bones. If we’re sharing one big fish, I split it into fillets and pick out all the bones myself, but we each have our own and I don’t feel like doing it twice. I get all the fish eyes, yum.
9:30 K tells me the news about Ruth Bader Ginsburg passing. A friend also texts me about it a couple of minutes later. I am so sad. She was such an amazing person and inspiring woman. I read an article detailing parts of her life I hadn’t known about before. This makes me even sadder, though.
10:00 We finish the strawberries together. K nods off during Adventure Time. I’m hit with a sense of déjà vu: this happened exactly, early on in our relationship. Sometimes history repeats itself in a cute way. We eventually go up to sleep. My mouth stings as I brush my teeth - the sore on the inside, near my lip, is getting worse. I've been trying not to irritate it too much since it's in an awkward spot, but that's clearly not working.
11:30 I’m still awake reading random things on my phone. So bad. I go to sleep.
Total $42.29
Day 7, Saturday
9:15 am Phone buzzes me awake. Friends confirm the Fall Festival plan.
10:15 I’m still in bed because warm. K offers to turn the heat up, but I’ll be fine. After I wash my face, I can’t find my towel so drip awkwardly over the sink until I remember one on a nearby shelf. K must have grabbed our dirty towels for laundry.
10:30 I put crepes in the oven to defrost. I wish I'd put parchment paper between layers when stacking, because it’s been annoying separating them.
K and I talk about the new health insurance cards, and what appointments I'll make. First will be Planned Parenthood, because I’m on my last pack of pills! The only time I wasn’t covered was the months after college graduation and before my job started. I worried so much that I’d have an accident and be buried in debt. Luckily didn’t happen. I also really appreciate when work pays into insurance, after having to pay the entire premium myself during grad school.
K browses the Nintendo shop and pulls up the Ori sequel. I do want it but think we should wait; $40 seems pricey and we have so many other games we haven’t started or finished. He tells me he did buy Hades on sale since we tend to play these types of games more. I really liked the trailer so glad he did.
11:30 I scroll online while I eat the crepes, watch K play Hades. I love the art, but not sure I’d be good. You battle many enemies, and you have to react fast. We switch and I play! It's challenging but not too much that I feel like I can’t figure it out. At some point, K finds socks on the ground and puts them on me since I’m too busy playing but still complaining about cold feet. Thanks K!
1:45 He reminds me we’re supposed to meet friends at 2:00. Today's outfit: green pleated maxi, a mustard top, and a magenta suede vest with long fringe on the shoulders and edges that reach my calves. One of my favorite statement pieces.
2:15 We find our friends and chat, waiting for the other ones. Apparently the festival was canceled, and instead there’s a small farmers’ market. Now I feel bad having asked them out for this – the cancellation wasn’t mentioned on the official webpage!
Our other friends get here and we check out the market. It smells delicious; there’s one stall with donuts, one with pretzels. K and a couple friends go for donuts. I find the dried bouquets vendor and request two with orange, pink, and purple-blue flowers. They cost $9 each, but K pays since I don’t have cash. We all decide to walk down the main street for fun.
4:00 I stop for $5 bubble tea. I get lavender with traditional bubbles (there are popping ones, but I think those are weird). It's yummy, enough flavor but not so much that I’m eating a candle. K and friends get ice cream, trying the fall flavors. Then we all part ways and go home. Another package at the door, with K’s name on it, but he’s not expecting anything. They’re cool wooden coasters with a laser cut outline of the city we met in! Turns out a friend sent it as a gift.
6:30 Dinner time. K baked chicken with cumin and other seasonings, plus rice and defrosted peas. We watch Adventure Time. It’s interesting to me how adult kids shows can be. There are incredibly sad/disturbing moments that would be completely missed by kids. During episodes I get text alerts from in my siblings' group chat. Adorable pictures of my cute niece, finally smiling instead of looking angry. For the rest of the night, K and I take turns playing Hades. He keeps getting further than me, but I’m not too behind!
9:30 Bed time. We’ll see if I can sleep early tonight.
Total $5.67
Weekly Total $69.97
Food + Drink = $46.89
Home + Health = $23.09
REFLECTION
I think I tend to buy little things during the week. In contrast, K tends to make bigger purchases of many items once or twice a month. It’s nice to see my spending be “normal” again, since for a few months I was spending a lot on furnishings and such. I do want to be better about buying less treats, and resist buying plants (though now that space near the windows is running out, less a problem). The resale market is good for calming my inner shopper. I don't feel like I’m missing out too much, because there’s so much out there that even if I don’t nab this thing, a similar thing will pop up later. So I'm okay being pickier about those purchases.
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2020.09.24 16:08 avant-gardner0 I got kicked out of a friend group for losing my wallet?

I'll be honest, this is a vent post. There's nothing I can do anymore, but I still need to know if I was in the wrong.

So I had this cosplay friend group that I joined because I became friend with a couple (A and B) my age at a con, and then they asked me to play pathfinder with them and join their group, so I gradually became friends with everyone else, but I still only had private chats with those two. Most of them were from the same city two hours from mine or in the same region, so we got to see eachother at cons and maybe twice a year more than that (since I didn't have a licence yet).
Last year I came to their city for a con, to pass the time with A and B, and since I had like 4 friends there I asked if anyone could host me, but no one could so I got a bed in a hostel. Since I was alone there at the end of the day I asked A if I could have dinner with both of them, and they seemed a bit surprised, but A showed me the way to their place and we got pizza.
I left to go to my hostel, but when I got to the main office I couldn't find my wallet. I was in a foreign city at midnight, and if I had no money I couldn't pay the gas or the highway toll to go home, so I got a little scared. I managed to pay the hostel with paypal and I started to look everywhere, because I only had one bag, and I looked one time in my car, because when I tried to go for a second time the door to the hostel would automatically close, and I didn't have the keys.
So I asked A to look for it, because I knew I had it when I paid for my pizza, and they looked and told me they couldn't find it, so I asked them to check again, because I was kind of panicking.
This was a big mistake.
They told me that their partner was feeling unwell, and that they couldn't worry about my problems too. They did not specify how they were feeling, so I assumed they were just puking, and I asked if the next day I could come to check myself and if they could lend me 20 bucks if I couldn't find it.
The next day I found the wallet in my car, and I immediatly told A, and apologized for the commotion the night before. They told me they wouldn't come to the Con because B felt too bad, but the worst had passed. A asked me to buy some prints for B, so I did, and I told them. A immediately wrote me that it was supposed to be a surprise (which they didn't tell me before).
I met with A outside the con to give them the prints and give back the headphones I had borrowed. They were ice cold. Even if I continued to apologize they told me that my behaviour the night before was unacceptable, and that they weren't sure if they could share their room with me at the big Con of the year if I acted like that again.
I felt disconnected for the rest of the con, and left early, crying all the way back in my car. My parents told me I was probably overracting to a minor problem when I told them, and I thought so too. I considered the debacle finished and went on playing with them and chatting on the group chat, and A never spoke about it to me again.
But our relationship had changed. They were colder with me, and unyielding. Every time we saw eachother in person they would never talk directly to me, and if I did anything "out of line", from getting stuck in traffic to arriving on a train that was late to losing a ticket, that was another proof that I was a fuckup. I felt this negative energy, and tried to be on my best behaviour anytime we saw eachother, but even when I did nothing it was still tense, and more often than not I cried when leaving them, partly because I wouldn't see them for months, partly because I did some minor error (like setting a game up wrong) and didn't feel worthy to be with them all.
The worst thing was that I didn't feel like I could talk about this. This was an aggresively positive group, and it seemed like no one had a problem but me. I knew A would not be understanding and since everyone was friends with them first and with me last and for transitive property, I wasn't ready to have a conversation that could potentially alienate me from my only friend group.
I honestly didn't think this was all because of the wallet thing, and mainly chalked it up to "all my friends hate me" paranoia. I honestly enjoyed our time together and feeling in a group that had my same interests, and in that period I really needed the support because I was having problems at home. But I was nearing my boiling point.
During quarantine we joined a lareger discord server with other cosplayers and friends of friends, and after so many months apart we decided to take a vacation together. 12 people that hardly knew eachother in the same 3 bedroom house for a week. Things were hard at first, but everyone seemed to slowly settle down over the week, and I tried to keep calm too, but I knew that this situation had to be solved, because I thought I was going crazy. I could not spend that much time with someone I knew was hostile towards me, but where we both had to pretend we didn't see it.
The first day I lost my bus, and my first thought was what A would think of me (they later listed it as another proof of my incompetence), but through four trains and one bus I managed to get there only one hour later than scheduled. We stayed inside the house for most of the week because we were all supposed to bond and because it's hard to make 12 people agree on anything. I stayed awake crying most nights because I didn't know if I would have the courage to have the talk, and meanwhile every day A dismissed my input and sent me bad looks any time I said something they didn't approve.
At one point another person from the group came over, and we talked about my problem, and she told me she had similar grievances with A, but she left the next day because she couldn't stand the tension in the air (note also that this vacation was planned the same week of the graduation, which she had been planning for months, but they ignored her, probably bc she wasn't high enough in the food chain).
The second to last day I felt antsy and decided to take a walk by myself on the mountains. When I told everyone that I would be a bit late the host told me to come home immediately, because she feared that it could rain or go dark. I, after a week of feeling restricted and bossed over, told her to wait and that I would be home shortly. In 10 minutes I got 20 missed calls from the group, and when I finally answered they told me to come home at that instant. I knew sunset was still far, and the weather forecast was good, so I dismissed them a bit, continued to go up for 5 minutes, then I ran back, feeling like my leash had been yanked. The host chewed me out for 20 minutes after I came back, and I retreated to cry and call another friend outside. No one came to see me or even aknowledged what had happened after, just letting me quietly sit in a circle with them.
The next day we stayed home again, despite saying that we would go out at least once, but I didn't feel like I could speak after that, so I just quietly realized I had to have the talk that day or never. At dinner I asked A if we could speak, then disassociated a bit as everyone seemed as merry as ever, while I knew what was coming. I started crying and we went all out for an evening stroll, me and A staying behind to talk.
It was everything I feared. I read my problems with the situation from a list I had made on my phone and A either told me I was in the wrong or denied it. They told me they still couldn't forgive me for what I had done that night, because they felt stuck between a rock and a hard place as B was feeling so unwell they started to go to the emercency room, but didn't because she felt better on the ride there (which I was never told), and that I should have understood the situation and trusted them when they told me they couldn't find my wallet the first time.
They listed any and all errors that I had made in their company, proving that this list wasn't only in my head, and that they could never trust me again, seeing as I was so disorganised and incompetent. When I told them the main reason I didn't talk about this sooner was because I saw them as a "queen bee" of sort in the group, she vehemently denied it and told me it was only my view and that everybody else knew we were all equal. In the end they broke down too and started spiraling, so I comforted them, even though they had just told me they never wanted to see me again.
I then had a talk with other people in the house as A talked with some others and B, who was incredibly mad at me for making them cry, and finally I had a long talk with B as they told me I was no longer welcome in their pathfinder group, and that it would be best if we didn't see eachother.B told me there were more than one reason for this, chiefly that I wasn't sensitive to other's emotions enough and that I should watch what I say more. For me, that had tried to be as perfect as possible in any interaction for more than a year, this was devastating.
We talked until 4 am, and then I tried to sleep as they talked about me in the other room, and finally succeeded at 6. I woke up at 8, took another 4 trains home and slept from 5 pm to the next day.
I haven't talked to anyone from the group since, and no one reached out to me. I texted A a couple of days after and they just told me that no one saw them as a queen bee, and that they didn't want to talk to me again, and to have fun with my "special friends" (by this point I had another friend group in my hometown, which I had made specifically because I knew how this could end).
And that's it. Two years of friendships with multiple people cancelled because I misplaced a wallet for a night.
I realize that my side of the story is biased, but I honestly cannot wrap my head around it. It's clear that this person wanted to get rid of me for a long time, but had to pick a moment where everyone would be on their side, but I can't see why the animosity was all about.
I still consider A and B to be good people at heart, and just, realizing what a poor opinion they had of me made me question my every move. Even when I tried to be on my best behaviour I couldn't measure up.
having lost contacts with everyone else hurts a lot, but I didn't expect it to go any differently, as I indeed left a monarchy.
Reddit, what did I do wrong?
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2020.09.24 16:06 avant-gardner0 I got kicked out of a group for losing my wallet?

I'll be honest, this is a vent post. There's nothing I can do anymore, but I still need to know if I was in the wrong.

So I had this cosplay friend group that I joined because I became friend with a couple (A and B) my age at a con, and then they asked me to play pathfinder with them and join their group, so I gradually became friends with everyone else, but I still only had private chats with those two. Most of them were from the same city two hours from mine or in the same region, so we got to see eachother at cons and maybe twice a year more than that (since I didn't have a licence yet).
Last year I came to their city for a con, to pass the time with A and B, and since I had like 4 friends there I asked if anyone could host me, but no one could so I got a bed in a hostel. Since I was alone there at the end of the day I asked A if I could have dinner with both of them, and they seemed a bit surprised, but A showed me the way to their place and we got pizza.
I left to go to my hostel, but when I got to the main office I couldn't find my wallet. I was in a foreign city at midnight, and if I had no money I couldn't pay the gas or the highway toll to go home, so I got a little scared. I managed to pay the hostel with paypal and I started to look everywhere, because I only had one bag, and I looked one time in my car, because when I tried to go for a second time the door to the hostel would automatically close, and I didn't have the keys.
So I asked A to look for it, because I knew I had it when I paid for my pizza, and they looked and told me they couldn't find it, so I asked them to check again, because I was kind of panicking.
This was a big mistake.
They told me that their partner was feeling unwell, and that they couldn't worry about my problems too. They did not specify how they were feeling, so I assumed they were just puking, and I asked if the next day I could come to check myself and if they could lend me 20 bucks if I couldn't find it.
The next day I found the wallet in my car, and I immediatly told A, and apologized for the commotion the night before. They told me they wouldn't come to the Con because B felt too bad, but the worst had passed. A asked me to buy some prints for B, so I did, and I told them. A immediately wrote me that it was supposed to be a surprise (which they didn't tell me before).
I met with A outside the con to give them the prints and give back the headphones I had borrowed. They were ice cold. Even if I continued to apologize they told me that my behaviour the night before was unacceptable, and that they weren't sure if they could share their room with me at the big Con of the year if I acted like that again.
I felt disconnected for the rest of the con, and left early, crying all the way back in my car. My parents told me I was probably overracting to a minor problem when I told them, and I thought so too. I considered the debacle finished and went on playing with them and chatting on the group chat, and A never spoke about it to me again.
But our relationship had changed. They were colder with me, and unyielding. Every time we saw eachother in person they would never talk directly to me, and if I did anything "out of line", from getting stuck in traffic to arriving on a train that was late to losing a ticket, that was another proof that I was a fuckup. I felt this negative energy, and tried to be on my best behaviour anytime we saw eachother, but even when I did nothing it was still tense, and more often than not I cried when leaving them, partly because I wouldn't see them for months, partly because I did some minor error (like setting a game up wrong) and didn't feel worthy to be with them all.
The worst thing was that I didn't feel like I could talk about this. This was an aggresively positive group, and it seemed like no one had a problem but me. I knew A would not be understanding and since everyone was friends with them first and with me last and for transitive property, I wasn't ready to have a conversation that could potentially alienate me from my only friend group.
I honestly didn't think this was all because of the wallet thing, and mainly chalked it up to "all my friends hate me" paranoia. I honestly enjoyed our time together and feeling in a group that had my same interests, and in that period I really needed the support because I was having problems at home. But I was nearing my boiling point.
During quarantine we joined a lareger discord server with other cosplayers and friends of friends, and after so many months apart we decided to take a vacation together. 12 people that hardly knew eachother in the same 3 bedroom house for a week. Things were hard at first, but everyone seemed to slowly settle down over the week, and I tried to keep calm too, but I knew that this situation had to be solved, because I thought I was going crazy. I could not spend that much time with someone I knew was hostile towards me, but where we both had to pretend we didn't see it.
The first day I lost my bus, and my first thought was what A would think of me (they later listed it as another proof of my incompetence), but through four trains and one bus I managed to get there only one hour later than scheduled. We stayed inside the house for most of the week because we were all supposed to bond and because it's hard to make 12 people agree on anything. I stayed awake crying most nights because I didn't know if I would have the courage to have the talk, and meanwhile every day A dismissed my input and sent me bad looks any time I said something they didn't approve.
At one point another person from the group came over, and we talked about my problem, and she told me she had similar grievances with A, but she left the next day because she couldn't stand the tension in the air (note also that this vacation was planned the same week of the graduation, which she had been planning for months, but they ignored her, probably bc she wasn't high enough in the food chain).
The second to last day I felt antsy and decided to take a walk by myself on the mountains. When I told everyone that I would be a bit late the host told me to come home immediately, because she feared that it could rain or go dark. I, after a week of feeling restricted and bossed over, told her to wait and that I would be home shortly. In 10 minutes I got 20 missed calls from the group, and when I finally answered they told me to come home at that instant. I knew sunset was still far, and the weather forecast was good, so I dismissed them a bit, continued to go up for 5 minutes, then I ran back, feeling like my leash had been yanked. The host chewed me out for 20 minutes after I came back, and I retreated to cry and call another friend outside. No one came to see me or even aknowledged what had happened after, just letting me quietly sit in a circle with them.
The next day we stayed home again, despite saying that we would go out at least once, but I didn't feel like I could speak after that, so I just quietly realized I had to have the talk that day or never. At dinner I asked A if we could speak, then disassociated a bit as everyone seemed as merry as ever, while I knew what was coming. I started crying and we went all out for an evening stroll, me and A staying behind to talk.
It was everything I feared. I read my problems with the situation from a list I had made on my phone and A either told me I was in the wrong or denied it. They told me they still couldn't forgive me for what I had done that night, because they felt stuck between a rock and a hard place as B was feeling so unwell they started to go to the emercency room, but didn't because she felt better on the ride there (which I was never told), and that I should have understood the situation and trusted them when they told me they couldn't find my wallet the first time.
They listed any and all errors that I had made in their company, proving that this list wasn't only in my head, and that they could never trust me again, seeing as I was so disorganised and incompetent. When I told them the main reason I didn't talk about this sooner was because I saw them as a "queen bee" of sort in the group, she vehemently denied it and told me it was only my view and that everybody else knew we were all equal. In the end they broke down too and started spiraling, so I comforted them, even though they had just told me they never wanted to see me again.
I then had a talk with other people in the house as A talked with some others and B, who was incredibly mad at me for making them cry, and finally I had a long talk with B as they told me I was no longer welcome in their pathfinder group, and that it would be best if we didn't see eachother.B told me there were more than one reason for this, chiefly that I wasn't sensitive to other's emotions enough and that I should watch what I say more. For me, that had tried to be as perfect as possible in any interaction for more than a year, this was devastating.
We talked until 4 am, and then I tried to sleep as they talked about me in the other room, and finally succeeded at 6. I woke up at 8, took another 4 trains home and slept from 5 pm to the next day.
I haven't talked to anyone from the group since, and no one reached out to me. I texted A a couple of days after and they just told me that no one saw them as a queen bee, and that they didn't want to talk to me again, and to have fun with my "special friends" (by this point I had another friend group in my hometown, which I had made specifically because I knew how this could end).
And that's it. Two years of friendships with multiple people cancelled because I misplaced a wallet for a night.
I realize that my side of the story is biased, but I honestly cannot wrap my head around it. It's clear that this person wanted to get rid of me for a long time, but had to pick a moment where everyone would be on their side, but I can't see why the animosity was all about.
I still consider A and B to be good people at heart, and just, realizing what a poor opinion they had of me made me question my every move. Even when I tried to be on my best behaviour I couldn't measure up.
having lost contacts with everyone else hurts a lot, but I didn't expect it to go any differently, as I indeed left a monarchy.
What did I do wrong?
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2020.09.24 00:03 jiminycricketlu 21 YEAR OLD FEMALE TIRED OF TOXIC/ABUSIVE FAMILY DYNAMIC

If one person reads this till the end & replies it would mean a lot. Never spoke about this before, so this might be a lengthy post. Let me start by saying I am a 21 year old female, I have one older brother & my parents have been divorced for 10 years. Growing up I never thought the things going on in my house were weird or strange, as this was the only reality I was aware of.
When I was 4 years old, we moved to a different country for no apparent reason. Being in that city for almost two years, we proceeded to move to another city where we stayed for 8 years. Moving a lot has affected me in a way that I feel like I have no home, although my family dynamic affected that even more. I loved both of my parents when I was young, I still do but not in the same way. I didn’t used to see their behaviour as wrong as I was too young and innocent to understand that it is in fact toxic.
One memory that I have to this day was when I had an argument with a school friend Iva at the age of 8 (at the time made me very upset) & when I did something to ‘upset’ my parents they were saying: “No wonder your friend doesn’t want to be friends with you, you are awful” and calling me names. This is just an example of behaviour they constantly do. To this day my mum will say to me: “You don’t have many friends because you are selfish & a user” when we have arguments, even though I have an amazing group of friends who are super supportive & truly want the best for me.
My dad became physically abusive towards me when I was 11 years old, as this was the time I started to realise something was off & would often question things he did/said. My dad would always make me out to be the bad guy, whilst being super nice(grooming) my brother. Although I understand my brother & I are both victims, I had a lot of anger towards my brother growing up as I envied his position. My dad would kick me, call me names & spit on me. Sometimes he would have a reason like ‘’You forgot your key’’ & sometimes he would just lash out for no reason.
At Xmas when I was 12 years old, I made a joke at the dinner table which severely offended my dad (although I was not directed at him and my brother,mum and I were laughing) to which he proceeded to smack me & call me names. My mum just sat there & watched, no one defended or protected me. In that moment of hopelessness I got up & went to our laundry room & drank detergent thinking I could just end it. I told my parents I want to kill myself, to which my dad said: “ I hope you die” & my mum just looked worried trying to calm down the situation (my dad). After that Xmas I was truly not the same. I feel like I grew up over night & something in my brain just changed. My mum never addressed my suicide attempt, nor did anyone ever come to tell me the abuse was not my fault. I was alone.
Later that year, my parents got divorced. They carried on living together for another few years but the gig was up. After they finally split, my mother would make me go visit our dad (even if I didn’t want to) because she didn’t want him to lash out on her saying she is ‘separating him from his kids’ as it caused her a lot of distress. A lot of times when I would visit, he would get abusive towards me & then proceed to call my mother stating that I was being rude & arrogant. My mother would then say stuff like: ‘’Why can’t you just ignore it & act normal?You know he is going to call me up”.Even though whatever I did it would always end up the same. I wish my mother was there to protect me, not just protect herself.
Throughout my teenage years I started to deal with serious depression & anxiety. I suffered low self-esteem & was too ashamed to tell anyone what exactly was going on, even my closest friends. Wherever I went & whatever I did I would always feel empty & alone. These feelings are still present to this day.
I stopped talking to my dad in when I was 14, when he became physical with me again. I decided that was going to be the last time. I was in the country I was born in (isolated from my friends) staying with him & my brother whilst my mother was with my auntie in another city in the same country. I was so distressed after he lashed out on me that last time, it was around Xmas which is a very difficult time for me due to what happened a few years prior. I called my mother to tell her what happened & the next day she came to where I was staying & my dad left. When she came I remember she was almost disappointed. No hug saying it was gonna be alright or stating it was not my fault, just a lot of guild & questioning my behaviour even though she is aware of his abusive side as she always used to talk about how much he scared her. Once again I felt like the bad guy & felt alone in what I was dealing with.
When I stopped talking to my dad, my mother & brother would always talk about it in such a way where they never called it ‘abuse’ and due to my mother never addressing my abuse correctly, I believed it have been my fault for being immature. However having a phone call with my dad at 18years old made me realise I was completely right for cutting him off & it should stay that way.
My mother & I had a close bond after everything happened. I also believe I was there for her support as well as instead of a therapist. She would talk to me a lot about how she feels & how abused she got. My brother would go from one parent to the other all the time, so I believe my mum needed me close for that reason. Although I love my mum a lot, she has narcissistic traits. Maybe traumas from all the abuse she experienced, but she has an amazing way of dismissing my feelings & my trauma. She called me dramatic a few times & sometimes just straight up says ‘’Well nobody’s life is easy’’, even though she is fully aware of how she did not protect me when I was unable to do so myself.
I moved out of the house at 18 and started living alone for university. We had an okay relationship, although I noticed how often we would argue when I would come back for holidays. My mum would often lash out & make an absolute scene if the dishes weren’t washed or something wasn’t done up to her standard. When I came home to visit for holidays this March, I ended up staying due to lockdown.
Lockdown shattered my mental health to the point were I was seriously suicidal again. I didn’t speak to anyone about my suicidal thoughts, although my best friend noticed something was off with me & suggested I speak to a professional. During this time my mum kept starting arguments over trivial things which could be solved easily. I often notice a pattern where she starts an argument, gets me super angry & when I raise my voice she proceeds to call me crazy. Also she completely dismisses my mental health & does not allow me to be weak or even state I am suffering. When I said I’m going to therapy she was not too interested, but surely a loving parent would want to know what their child is going through?
Speaking to a therapist I realised I am in fact not crazy & all that has happened was never my fault. Going to a therapist helped me realise the entire situation. I always used to perceive my dad as the evil character, but failed to recognise my mother as the enabler. It really hurts me to say this, but sometimes I think my mum is quite narcissistic. I just hate to admit it, because it makes me realise how alone I truly am.
My mother will call me names & never say sorry. When I had bad acne she would always comment on it & even once told me that if she looked like that she wouldn’t leave the house. Her excuse was that she said it because she was annoyed I didn’t have a correct skincare routine, so she felt entitled to call me names. My mum has supported me financially & helped me, we have also had some amazing times. But sadly now, the bad times outnumbered the good ones.
My mother is also a classic example of a helicopter mother with no boundaries. Whilst being at home this time, I let her watch Netflix on my lap top. However, she proceeded to check all my emails & social media messages & called me up whilst I was at a friends house to ask: ‘’Why didn’t you reply to this email?? You need to find a job and you are not on top of things’’. After I confronted her about the lack of boundaries, she said she ‘’Had to check it, because she can’t trust me with what I’m doing’’. Always an explanation, never sorry.
One day my brother, mum and I sat to have a conversation about our dynamic. My brother & I were both talking and speaking normally. My mother was ‘semi’ listening, however not properly engaging in the conversation or showing she cares about solving something. Two days after that my mum and I had an argument, to which she proceeded to write a horrible message in our family group chat (my uncle, auntie, brother & mum) calling me lazy, good for nothing, even commenting how I’m a disgusting open mouth food chomping cow. My mother is a 60 year old woman who thinks that is okay behaviour. I proceeded to leave the family group chat, pack my bags and went to a friends house.
Going back to my university, I haven’t spoken to my mum on the phone almost at all. I sent her a message saying what I’m doing & how I am, but I don’t know what to do from now on with out relationship. I love her, but I don’t like the way she makes me feel when I’m at home. I also love my dad, but I had to cut ties with him. I’m in a really difficult situation right now, as I’m only 21 years old. I need to have support, I need love. I don’t have that. I feel like my parents will never understand how they have hurt me & impacted my life. I wish things were different.
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2020.09.23 23:24 Substantial-Buy-2413 [Review] MaxMara Madame Coat aka 101801 Icon Coat from Non-TS Max

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Price: 2250 + 360 (Shipping via TNT) = 2610 CNY (USD$383) paid through TransferWise
Order timeline:
Quality 10/10

Accuracy 9.75/10
Satisfaction 10/10
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Constructive criticism welcome!
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2020.09.23 22:40 CyrilDPP [M4F] [Rule 34/R34] Prompt Dump

This prompt is always open.
Rule 34 is pretty much the best. There’s so many interesting character designs and personalities across so many forms of media, and pretty much everyone has a few fictional crushes. This prompt set is for people who are connoisseurs of digital eye candy.
I’m over 18, and expect all applicants to be the same. I also expect all involved characters to be over the age of eighteen, so canon will have to be shifted on a case-by-case basis. Each of my prompts that deal with characters who are canonically underage includes a brief adjustment the setting to make as much sense as possible while still maintaining close approximations of context-- high school students become university students, etcetera.
Here’s my kinklist, to get it on the table early. Nothing on there is an absolute must, and there’s a whole lotta ‘like’ and ‘favorite’. A lot of my prompts below are leaning more towards vanilla than hard kinks, but that’s for accessibility. If you like to get freaky, seriously, take a look at the kinklist. I probably like something that you also do, even if you don’t see it in a prompt. Let me know, we can discuss it.
First up, the prompt ideas themselves. These are general ideas that can be adjusted and discussed. I’m also open to much more, really; please feel free to suggest and I will always entertain and respond.
Canon-(ish) (preferred): We stay inside the lore and universe of the game. Whether this is a canon romance happening, an OC hooking up with a canon character, a branch off where two characters who didn’t hook up in the source material end up as an item, or a bad end that shows what happens to the hero(es) after failing in their quest… it takes place in the universe the characters are familiar with. Almost all of the prompt suggestions below fit this bill. Please note that SPOILERS will be in some of my suggestions, and thus I’ve chosen to hide them behind a spoiler tag to make sure I don’t ruin the games/anime for anyone.
Modern AU: The characters from the in-universe end up in, well, ours. Whether through a portal, or just adjusting their world so that it happens in ours, the character or characters of our story live in the world we know and love. They go to restaurants and movies, hit up bars, use Tinder… whatever normal, well-adjusted people in this world do.
Cosplayer: A girl who really likes the design and/or personality of a character tries going as them to a convention. This leads to lots of attention from lots of guys, at least one of whom she ends up interested in enough to play around with.
Next, the fandoms that I’m actively interested in, alphabetized because I’m a madman. I’m gradually adding examples of in-universe ideas for each and adding fandoms as I go, and I’d be happy to play out those examples if someone is interested, but otherwise they’re just suggestions to outline the kind of scenes I have in mind. Some of them are sweet, romantic endeavors between characters both established and original. Some of them are significantly more hardcore. I’m pretty down for either, to be honest. They’re just a sample of some of my ideas,so you know I'm actually serious. You might notice that some of them are F4F-- I'm totally down for playing a girl or futa alongside another girl or futa.
Please note that both of the below lists are far from complete. If there’s something rule 34 that you’re interested in playing, let me know. Adding to my pool of prompts is always fun. If I know the source material well enough that I could even decently pull it off, I’m sure we can arrange something.

Games

.hack//G.U.

Celeste

Danganronpa

Dark Souls/Bloodborne

Devil May Cry

Doki Doki Literature Club

Final Fantasy

Fire Emblem

Katawa Shoujo

Legend of Zelda

Monster Hunter

NieNier Automata

Octopath Traveler

Overwatch

Persona

Pokemon

Shantae

Skullgirls

Smash Bros.

Tales series (Tales of Vesperia, Tales of the Abyss, etc)

Anime

Ancient Magus Bride

Fate

Fullmetal Alchemist

Konosuba

My Next Life as a Villainess

Ouran Host Club

Re:zero

Steins;Gate

That Time I was Reincarnated as a Slime

I prefer about two paras per post, ish, but I can adjust-- typically no less than one para and no more than three on the average. I play on Discord primarily, but Reddit PMs are fine if that’s more comfortable for you. Let me know if you’re interested, I try to reply to every message I get. Thank you for reading, hope you see something you like!
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2020.09.23 19:54 psychedelilahh Highlight of my day

I was 12 y/o when I had my first crush on this good-for-nothing guy and my father happened to come across this little card I had made with a heart around his name + mine (typical 12 y/o girl stuff). Ever since that, I haven’t had the closest relationship with my father. We have a healthy relationship, but have never been particularly close to the level of sharing what ails us. We have the occasional chat over breakfast early morning. Since the pandemic happened, I’ve been working from home and I am not the greatest at MS office. Today I got stuck trying to subtract 2 dates and asked him for help. I usually work in bed, my room is a pretty sacred place in my home. He got into bed beside me to help me. For that whole 20 minutes he sat close to me, teaching me how to do what I needed and then some more. It took me back to when I was younger and he would teach me math and even though we didn’t talk about feelings all the time- that time was precious and I connected with him as human beings. As an adult, I rarely ask him for help but when I do- I feel so safe knowing he’s going to get me the help I asked for.
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2020.09.23 15:43 Darkchurchhill I am 24 years old make $90,000, live in Boston, Massachusetts and work as a full stacks developer

*mental health, drugs, body image and food discussed\*
Background: Hi, I am 24 years old and make $90,000, live in the Boston area (Cambridge/Somerville). I work as a full stacks developer and have a BS in computer science. Currently, I live with two housemates in a cute townhome apartment in a nice walkable neighborhood with lots of parks, restaurants, and amenities. I originally moved here from LA on a whim late last September despite not knowing anyone or having a place to call home. I was living with my parents after university and working in a job environment I hated. I was really depressed and overspent on clothes, beauty products, and going out like crazy to cope. Moving to Boston allowed me to feel in control of my life, and as of today, it’s been officially a year, which is crazy. I decided to put one up today to celebrate. I’ve always wanted to do a money diary, but was ashamed to do so when I felt like a mess.
Section One: Assets and Debt
Section Two: Income
Section Three: Expenses
Wednesday 16th
7:00am: The sun wakes me. I was hoping to sleep in more since I redownloaded tinder last night and stayed up till like 3am swiping and contemplating if this was the wrong decision for my mental and physical health. One of my matches messaged me to come over. I haven’t gotten laid since before the pandemic lockdown started. The sexual frustration has been real. I entertain the thought, but don’t reply back.
11:30am: On a zoom meeting with my boss, she asks us if we would like to start coming back twice a week to meet in person in October. I feel unsure about this, as I am still sketched out by public transit, but everything is still up in the air.
12:30pm: I eat leftover fried rice for lunch I made. I say fried rice but it mostly consists of vegetables. I still feel hungry afterwards, but I guess if I was going to be dating again I should lose some more weight so I can feel hot on my virtual zoom calls or wherever people do nowadays.
4:00pm: The work day is over early today. I hit up the guy on tinder who wanted to hook up. We make arrangements for him to slide through later this evening. He offers to come over to my place instead because he had something to do in Cambridge first anyways, and offers to bring drinks. We exchanged instagrams. I’m a little sussed out because he looks like the type who is really into themselves (like really into archival fashion RickOwens/Celine/YSL and has tons of edgy selfies). Whatever it’s just sex. I tell him it’s fine and that I have both wine and weed, and he sends me a little devil emoji.
5:00pm: I take the time to clean my room and make myself look presentable before planting myself onto the couch. I actually have no idea when he’s going to come, but I don’t want to message him again because if he doesn’t come through I want the satisfaction of him thinking I couldn’t care less. It’s toxic, I know, but in my lifetime I’ve been treated so badly by people I’ve given my heart to that sometimes I feel like my pride is the only thing I have left. Anyways, I wait by listening to female dating empowerment podcasts, hoping that some of the hosts’ confidence would rub off onto me.
7:00pm: I open a bottle of wine in anticipation and pour myself a glass.
10:00pm: No word from him, I guess I got stood up. Wow, only one day in and I’m already getting the full tinder experience. No surprises here though. I'm an adult. I can handle disappointment. I’m just really drunk now and alone.
11:00pm: Moody vinyls are now being played. I’m on the phone with friends, and three-fourths of my bottle of wine is gone. I check instagram only to see that the little weasel has unfollowed me so naturally I unfollowed him. I open tinder to unmatch him, but as I am doing so, his profile disappears. The prick beat me to it, and the petty side of me is annoyed. I think I’m just going to pass out. Honestly, I don’t hate this. The side of me who hates courting people has now overtaken my sex drive (the way it should be), and all forces are back to equilibrium. I’m only upset at how good of a job I did making myself look hot when there is no one here to appreciate it. The wine puts a spell on me, and I fall asleep to the muffled voice of my housemate calling his long distance girlfriend from the floor above me.
Total spent-$0
Thursday 17th
5:00am: I wake up and feel lots of shame. I swipe a bit, but there is no one I’m attracted to. It shouldn’t be this hard to get laid. I delete tinder from my phone. Ooof I’m glad my moment of weakness was short lived this time. I’m sorry y’all has to lay witness this to this dumpster fire.
7:00am: I check my emails. Three days ago, I applied for a new credit card with Chase and my application still hasn’t been approved. Weird, I have a good credit score and last year when I applied for my american express it took like a day. I am planning on spending $500 on a new synth (I am currently lusting over the Megafm by twisted electronics), and this card has a $200 cash back for the first $500 spent in the first 3 months. I google how long this process will take. Some say it takes about a week. I can wait. Guess you guys won’t be around to share my joy of blowing all my monies on synths.
11:30am: It’s avocado toast time. I need the carbs to combat the grogginess the wine left me feeling. It doesn’t taste great because I’m pretty sure my avocados are overripe, but oh well.
12:00pm: I check my credit card statement. My mom has made a $170 grocery store order with my credit card. I get 6% cash back on groceries and she wants to help me with getting cash back. The last time I saw her she gave me a few hundred dollars in cash to cover this. I don’t mind because I needed cash to buy merch at shows and stuff, and my bank doesn’t have any branches or atms in the Boston area. It’s kind of inconvenient now because everywhere has gone cashless, but I’m sure it’ll come into use when life resumes again or if I buy something off FB marketplace. $170
5:30pm: I make more fried rice and eat dinner. I make enough for lunch tomorrow as well.
8:23pm: I watch the The Real Story of Paris Hilton, her new documentary on youtube. The main opening song is Jesus and Mary Chain's Just like Honey. I remember how much I love this song and how much I would like to actually own it. I hop onto discog and search for a copy of the LP Psychocandy and buy it. I use leftover paypal credit in my account from when I sold some clothes on depop to cover the cost. $25.19.
10:00pm: Wow, the documentary was actually pretty sad. I always felt bad for Paris because of her leaked sex tapes when she was just a teen (and how the media painted her as the villain/slut for it), but was shocked to learn how she and countless other girls was drugged and abused by their boarding schools.
2:00am: I finish catching up on work and go to bed.
Total spent-$195.19
Friday
10:00am: Shoot I overslept. I log into work asap. I missed my daily 9:00am morning stand up, but my boss is usually pretty relaxed about these things. I still feel bad about it.
12:00pm: Eat fried rice for lunch. My friend messages me if I wanted to go record shopping with him. To be honest, I’ve been avoiding unnecessary in person retail shopping and don’t want to spend anymore money on records this month, but I also know he takes rejection super personally. He's insecure and always in his head that everyone actually dislikes him. It’s probably a little true because he does act like a brat sometimes, but I think it's due to severe depression. I tell him I’ll be down and justify the outing due to the record shop being near an asian grocer I like. I need groceries anyways and haven’t been to this store since pre pandemic.
4:30pm: I log out of work. Finally, the weekend.
5:00pm I take an edible and get ready to leave my home.
6:20pm I take the T to Central and pay with my pre loaded transit card. Back in March, I loaded $20 onto it and now I’m down to $4.80. I guess I have to reload it soon again. My friend informs me he’ll be late. I’m starting to feel high so I walk around and look at all the restaurants doing outdoor dining. My favorite place in Central is only doing takeout.
7:00pm: My friend arrives. We go to the record shop. I’m really high at this point. The tight aisles of the record shop makes me nervous.
7:30pm: My friend makes some big purchases, but I leave empty handed. We head over to the Hmart across the street. It’s nice to buy asian groceries. I stock up on veggies, enoki mushrooms, frozen gyoza, tofu, and even let myself get a few snacks. $68
8:00pm: One of my friends just messages me that Ruth Bader Ginsburg just passed. Truly devastating to hear. What a crazy election year.
8:30pm: I’m home and have the munchies. I snack on some of the things I bought, but it doesn’t fill my cravings.
9:45pm: I decide that I am ordering Mickey Ds. I call my housemate downstairs and ask him if he wants anything. He laughs and says no, causing me to doubt my order. However, he encourages me to order anyways, as he wants to mooch off some of my fries. I order fries and a mcChicken, and he sticks around downstairs like a seagull. $11
10:15pm: My food arrives. I know I will regret this tomorrow.
Total spent-$79
Saturday
8:00am: I regret ordering food last night. One of my friends once said to me “There is nothing you can eat that can make you feel as good as being skinny”. I’m not sure if I can agree with him, but it’s definitely true when it comes to fast food. My stomach hurts so bad. I distract myself by watching youtube in bed.
11:00am: I finally get up and call my mom. She informs me that one of my dad’s colleges passed from Covid-19 at age 40. That is so sad. It reminds me that getting laid can wait till next year. Rip my non existing sex life-- too soon for death jokes?
1:00pm: I work out in my living room (out of guilt for last night). I’ve been doing so well eating wise for the last few weeks and actually lost some of my quarantine weight. My only vice is that I love getting high, but I have no control when it comes to having the munchies.
2:00pm: The weather is starting to change, and it’s actually getting cold. It’s so strange. As a Calfornian, this time of year is usually the hottest. I pulled out a jacket I haven’t worn in a while. I find five dollars, a purple glittery gel pen, and an almost brand new pack of cigs in the pockets. What a score. I’m a seasonal social smoker, by that I mean that I only smoke when it gets cold and usually to meet new people in smoking pits at shows so I haven't touched a cig in months. To celebrate my finds and the changing of the seasons, I smoke one and it suppresses my post workout hunger.
4:00pm: I’m just watching tiktok on the couch, while snacking a little. I feel so guilty for being unproductive, but not enough to motivate myself to do something.
5:00pm: I move my ac unit from my room to the basement. Won’t be needing that for the rest of the year.
7:00pm: I make gyoza and hang out with my housemate playing video games (the newish Catherine reboot).
Total spent-$0
Sunday
4:45am: I fell asleep on the couch last night. I drag myself to the bathroom to take out contacts and brush my teeth. I close my window, climb into my bed, and go back asleep. It’s so cold.
11:40am: I wake up and check my messages. My other housemate is finally coming home after staying with his new girlfriend at her place for the last two months. He asks us what we want from Blue Ribbon, a bbq place we always get takeout from together. The house votes on one and a half chicken, a pint of burnt ends, slab of ribs, a quart of brisket, and a side of coleslaw. We split the cost three ways. $34
2:05pm: My housemate still hasn’t come home with food, but I’m hella hungry. Apparently he ordered from the wrong location and now has to go to another to pick up the food.
2:30pm: We eat bbq and then cake. My housemate accidentally missed my other housemate’s birthday, while he was gone living with his girlfriend so he brought makeup dessert.
3:30pm: We play video games (Smash ultimate) together for a few hours.
6:00pm: Everyone retires to their room except me. I sit on the couch and waste time on tictok. It sucks to be the only person in the house without a partner to call. I like being independent and openly acknowledge that I’m emotionally unavailable, but these last few months have made me question what I really need.
8:00pm: I go back to my room to get some work done.
12:30am: I feel lonely. I fall asleep to a documentary about Candy Darling.
Total spent-$34
Monday
8:00am: Wake up. Check my emails. I ordered a skirt from a seller on Thrilling (vintage clothing site) 3 weeks ago and it still hasn’t been sent out. I’m unhappy about this. I messaged Thrilling last week and the customer service rep reached out to the seller, and the seller said they will have it out by Saturday, but USPS tracking begs to differ. The item is still in pre shipment.
10:00am: I snack on blueberries as I work.
4:30pm: I log out of work. I eat BBQ leftovers for dinner and half a cookie. I open my 3rd la croix of the day. I’m down to only having two 12 packs. Will probably have to restock next week. I have a la croix addiction and go through 3-4 a day.
5:00pm: My housemate’s girlfriend swings by with a package from an online purchase he made (the one that just came back yesterday). He goes out to the driveway to meet her and tries to convince her to come in. She refuses because she’s self conscious of her quarantine weight. Big sad for me. I have yet to meet her and I was kind of looking forward to it. I haven’t interacted with another woman irl for a really really long time, and I really miss all my girlfriends in California. My housemate tells me that she said she’ll be willing to meet us once she loses weight first. I take that as I’ll never meet her.
5:30pm: I play video games with housemates to get in my daily socialization fix.
7:00pm: I practice playing banjo.
9:30pm: I do some more work before bed. Today was a standard boring day.
Total spent- $0
Tuesday
8:30am: I’m pleased that day’s are getting shorter and the sun is no longer waking me up at 5am everyday. I sleep next to multiple windows and the glare of the sun loves to hit directly where my pillows and head lie. While dressing I put on a bodysuit that I love, but I haven’t worn since college and a pair of Tripp raver pants. I can’t believe that up until I moved to Boston, I used to dress like this. There is so much side boob. Boston has made me so much more conservative in the way I dress, and I cover up. I put on a tight cardigan and am impressed with myself. Earlier this spring, this cardigan did not look good on me. Seems like my diet is working even though I did fudge up this weekend.
12:00pm: I eat leftovers for lunch and read today’s money dairy. The writer is similar to my age, which peaks my interest (also the mention of bumble in the title). I feel lonely. I need to stop thinking about dating apps. I can’t wait until it is safe to pick up men and women under dark lighting and liquid courage again.
4:30pm: I log out of work, and begin editing my money diary entries. It’s pretty therapeutic and feels like I’m talking to a group of new friends. There are a lot of grammar and spelling mistakes. I’m dyslexic so please bear with me.
5:00pm: I stir fry leftover rice, some leftover bbq meat, egg, broccoli, baby bok choy, and edamame. Dinner is ready. One of my housemates comes downstairs and also makes dinner and eats.
5:30pm: We play smash bros for a bit. I’m surprised our other housemate doesn’t come downstairs to join us. It’s been so long since he’s lived with us I forgot he always randomly falls asleep at weird times.
6:30pm: We retire to our rooms. I practice playing the banjo for a bit, while I chat with a friend through text.
9:15pm: Just doing some more work.
12:00am: Can't sleep so I exercise.
TOTAL FOR THE WEEK - $308.19
Food + Drink $113
Fun / Entertainment $25.19
Other $170
Lastly, reflect on your diary! Spending wise, this is a pretty typical week for me post pandemic. Most days I don’t spend money, but once or twice a month I would drop quite a bit of money (usually $500-600) on hobby related things, like the synth I mentioned in this diary. My spending has dramatically increased during the quarantine because I need to find ways to entertain and stimulate myself. Pre-pandemic most of my discretionary spending was spent on day trips and going to shows, which is pretty cheap and added up to no more than $400 a month. I was hardly ever home and when I was it was to wind down so I invested way less into my hobbies. I also spent less on food. Since spending more time with my housemates, the idea of takeout has become more normalized for me (I used to eat out once or twice a month, now I get take out at least once a week).
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2020.09.23 14:59 sivakumar927570 thailand tourist attractions

Today I came with some tips from Thailand where all the South Indians go usually This is a place where a lot of South Indians have gone This is not a country where no one knows much More people go to Thailand for tourism than to the Gulf Now I'm sharing some tips according to my experience At first I'm taking about the visa Thailand provides on arrival visa for Indian Passport holders They will charge 2000 Baht for the visa Sometimes it will be around 1000 Baht They also provide some offers in which the visa cost is absolutely free It was visa free at the time of my visit They also put some criteria for the visa purposes We must have to keep your photographs during the time of on-arrival There are options for taking the photographs Have a hard copy of the photograph beforehand also keep the xerox of our passport They will ask it and also the xerox of hotel confirmations and per person you've to keep 10,000 Baht as show money For families, you've to keep 20,000 Baht as show money Sometimes they won't inquire you about the show money ans sometimes they won't accept the credit cards So if possible try to keep dollars which is equivalent to 10,000 Baht or 10,000 Baht itself in your hand Money transferring is possible within the airport but it is possible after completing the immigration process You can get out of the airport only after taking the visa Before that, you've to show the required amount during immigration If possible try to collect the dollars in case of non availability of Thai Baht from anywhere Dollars are acceptable in everywhere So you can convert the dollars to Thai Baht after the immigration This is the point to note out in the case of visa Next is the case of airlines It is best to choose Air Asia while traveling from your home town There are two airports in Bangkok Suvarnabhumi Airport (BKK) and Don Mueang Airport (DMK) These two airports are very near to each other and they are separate airports thus interconnection is no possible with these Indigo airlines is another option from Kerala which is also available from Bangalore as well as Mumbai to Bangkok and Phuket Thus your arrival is at BKK airport From Kochi, Air Asia will land at DMK airport DMK has only this facility Metro link is available in BKK and is not available in DMK Bus service is there in DMK If you opt for Metro, you will have to take a bus from DMK and get off somewhere at the nearest MRT Taxi service are also available from both the airports The main reason to point out the metro link is that it is the journey with low cost compared with other modes because I was traveling by metro If you book the hotel near by the metro station then you can directly go to your hotel via metro within a low cost I booked a hotel in the Makkason area of ​​Bangkok I also got off at Bangkok Airport (BKK) and reached Makkasan area by metro. So this is the reason to point out the metro link Other than Air Asia, one can reach Bangkok by Indigo, Sri Lankan airlines, Scoot, Silk Air and so on You can also choose Indigo Airlines which will have a layover in in Bangalore and from there to Bangkok Several airlines are there from South India The reason for the direct travel is that if you choose Malaysian airlines in which you will spend extra minutes or hours in Malaysia for a 45 minutes travel Transfer in between flights is a huge loss Malaysia to Thailand is around a 45 minutes journey So it is better to take a direct flight to Thailand and also it won't affect your next day trip You'll get tired after the round trip Since it was budget airlines, rate is normal These are the tips related to airlines Next I'm detailing about the places in Thailand As you know there are many places in Thailand and the well known famous places are Bangkok and Pattaya Everyone will tell about these places at first These are well known places in Thailand Besides that there are other places in Thailand In the south part, the tourist places like Phuket, Krabi, Phi Phi Island are there The distance between Bangkok and Phuket are around 600-700 km From Bangkok it is having a whole night bus journey to Phuket Your whole Thailand trip will depends on your planning Some explore only Bangkok and Pattaya and return back Some explore only Phuket others will explore both Phuket and Krabi There are those who see all this together and come back When this happens it will increase your trip cost and the day too So you've to create your itinerary according to your convenience I will share my places of visit Anyway I'm going to Thailand Once I see a country, I will not go there I explore Thailand in a detailed way I'm not sure if I'll get there again, so I saw the places in a detailed way I went directly to Phuket and from there to Phi Phi island I visited Phi Phi by ferry and through ferry I visited Krabi Arrived in Bangkok by flight from Krabi I returned home from Bangkok This is how my Thai itinerary was Due to lack of time, I avoided to visit Pattaya This is how I created my itenary According to your itenary, you've to book the tickets If you're planning only to visit Bangkok, you can directly come and visit it Or else If you're planning to visit Bangkok and Phuket, so you have to take care about the return ticket So you're arriving at Bangkok and your return ticket is from Phuket You can also do the reverse booking ie; arriving at Phuket and the departure is from Bangkok Domestic flights within Bangkok are cheaper You can travel within the Bangkok in a rate of 2,000 to 3,000 Air Asia is there for the Domestic journey purposes Domestic airports like Krabi, Pattaya, Phuket The journey back and forth here and there is very short and it's cheap too Night bus service is available in these places, if you're choosing to travel by bus So you can travel the inner areas of Thailand in such a way Next I'm detailing about some places and their importance I did a detailed video about the places that I visited Links are available in the description box If needed you can check out the videos Quickly tell the way I went Phuket Places to visit in Phuket: a beach, Pa Tong beach Bangla street, it's a walking street and also a Big Buddha and moreover Wat Chalong Temple is also there In addition we can visit old Phuket town a hill and some more places too This is the main thing to see here in Phuket There is a place named Phi Phi Island and it starts from here From the south side of Phuket you've to take the ferry to reach the phi phi island You can also go back to Phuket from here Or you can go straight to Krabi from Phi Phi You will get accommodation facilities in Phi Phi Phi Phi Island is the interconnection of many islands like Monkey Island, James bond Island and so on The link of the detailed video regarding this will be dropped in the description box Next is Krabi Here you can find a natural hot spring pool in which you can enjoy with hot water around 40 degrees In addition an Emerald pool is also there which constitute hot water with 50 degrees Tiger cave temple in which you have to climb approx 1200 steps Krabi walking street is there Krabi town and so on Next destination is Bangkok It is the main area in Thailand Places like Floating market, Grand Palace, Wat Po, Metro, city train are all there in Bangkok It is a 3 hour drive from Bangkok to Pattaya You can also travel by bus which will costs approx 100 - 150 Baht If you're staying for a couple of days in Pattaya, then you need to take separate ticket from Bangkok to Pattaya and return back from there to Bangkok by bus If you are planning to go to Pattaya for one day only From Bangkok you can seek the help of any tour agent and they will take you to Pattaya They'll take you to Pattaya in the early morning and come back after doing one or two water activities and the beach. You can also get a package by adding Tiger Zoo within that trip Such options are also available Don't get confused Since it's a known country, thus I'm going in a little hurry in detailing These are the things to see in Bangkok and Pattaya I can also give you an extra tip Bangkok is a crowded city It is an area that takes a lot of time to get from one place to another So it's better to go as early as possible There in a canal in Bangkok and there is a metro station named Saphan Taksin a boat service is there beside to this metro station The boat service I traveled at that journey was Boat4u named company 1 day ticket costs 200 Baht 24 hours ticket Since boat service is available only in the morning, we can't take the service for 24 hours So we'll get only 12 hours If you get into the boat during morning, you can get down anywhere at anytime within these 6-7 stops This is the main peculiarity of this boat service So you won't get hault in between the traffic If you're staying beside the metro station, go to Saphan Taksin metro station and enjoy this boat service Thereby you can easily visit Grand Palace and the nearby places also you can visit the historical spot such as Wat Po You can also purchase from the biggest trade center in Bangkok As soon as we board the boat, they give us a map and a brochure It includes the places to visit in each stops These stops has its own tourist attractions After visiting these spots you can return back by this boat to Saphan Taksin and then to your room By going this way you can cover the major attractions in Bangkok town within a single day A floating market is also there in addition to these An old train service is also there In different areas of Thailand you can find many other activities like Pub, bar and so on You can also enjoy these activities too Next is about the safety Nothing to fear and you have the freedom to enjoy in Thailand You can walk down anywhere at any time during the night Robbery is also there You've to give extra care for that, otherwise it is safe to travel and there is nothing to fear about You can also get a rent a bike in Krabi, Phuket and Pattaya Take an IDP with you when you go In case of accident its necessary There is no other problem as long as the accident does not happen Rent a bike will costs around 200 Baht I'm not preferring this in Bangkok because its a crowded city But Phuket and Krabi is not that much crowded and you can also travel with this bike You can go everywhere but it is necessary to carry IDP along with you It is useful when you come across some accidents in between Otherwise you've to go with it which will definitely affect your entire trip So be careful while driving I rented a bike during the journey But I drove it carefully Traveling by bike is cheaper than calling a taxi back and forth within Phuket Once the bike is taken care of and ridden, there are no major problems While renting a bike, you've to surrender your passport or $ 100-200 It depends upon the company that you're renting it Most of the time you have to look at the review of the bike rental company to approach them By going so, places to are more easier and risky too So better to read the reviews before approaching There are some hotels/hostels in which they will provide the service for rent a bike If it is available from your place of stay, then try to arrange it from them It will be some more convenient than other This is the main point regarding rent a bike service and their safety Next is the case about hotel You can book the hotels accordingly through the sites booking.com, agoda.com and all Please do read the reviews before booking If you're visiting there as a bachelor group, then its better to take hostels You can book the hostel with 5-8 members for a single room Per day you can stay there in any hostels within a range of about $ 5-10 You can find such hostels everywhere And more a normal 3 * hotel may range from 700 - 800 Baht But the hostels will be around 200 - 250 Baht which may vary according to their quality You can seek the help of Google review as well and also you can also choose the hostel with 8-9 point rating in Booking.com thus you'll get such a good facility hostel over there Due to the plenty of hotels, it's better to read the reviews before booking it So I can't suggest which hotel is good in Thailand So many hotels are available there As I said read the Google reviews before booking the hotels Thus the range for 3* hotels will be around 600 - 800 Baht If you go for standard ones, it will costs approx 1,000 - 1,200 Baht and you'll get a rooms with 3* facility starting price will be around 600 Baht Most of the South Indians frown when they hear that it is Thailand and look at it with a smile. There is no need to look at that I do not know if there is another country in the world that welcomes so many tourists You've that much of freedom there because tourist are the main asset in Thailand So no need to look towards with another eye That kind of thing is happening in every country So you don't have to look at Thailand in that one way Each and every south Indians will laugh when someone is saying about Thailand No need to see in that way Try to see everything as positive There are many things you can do in Thailand that you think you can't walk In India, it is not possible to sit, feed or even take a photograph with a tiger in which there is no such facility available in India In Thailand there are options like you can feed a Tiger in the Zoo Here you can take a photo with the crocodile You can do so many adventurous activities during the Thailand visit If you want to take a big snake in hand it is possible over there Likewise you can do several such activities from Thailand Sea activities like Scuba diving, Paragliding are available in Thailand opens for tourists We can learn how Thailand attract tourists and how to live with tourism So we should not frown but respect them Taken in a good way, and then everything will be fine Each country has their own pros and cons We do not need to look at it In my opinion there is no need for anyone to frown in going to Thailand It's a good country in which you can go with your family or even as bachelor No need to worry about being safe even if you are going with family It's a good country to visit So you can take the tickets to visit Thailand after the corona They can't live without tourism and they don't have any other major resources like tourism So its essential for them Apart from my detailing tips, there may be some more restrictions after this pandemic situation In the near future we've to take a vaccine for the Corona pandemic which is similar to the vaccine for yellow fever in African region We may have to take the corona vaccine card while travelling These are the next options and that'll consider later So beware of these tips as I said If it opens and if it is useful, then you can easily utilize these tips accordingly If you're planning to visit after my tips or else it anyone knows more than what I explained in this video please do comment in the chat box accordingly You can also point out the mistakes that I made
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2020.09.23 14:57 sivakumar927570 thailand tourist attractions

Today I came with some tips from Thailand where all the South Indians go usually This is a place where a lot of South Indians have gone This is not a country where no one knows much More people go to Thailand for tourism than to the Gulf Now I'm sharing some tips according to my experience At first I'm taking about the visa Thailand provides on arrival visa for Indian Passport holders They will charge 2000 Baht for the visa Sometimes it will be around 1000 Baht They also provide some offers in which the visa cost is absolutely free It was visa free at the time of my visit They also put some criteria for the visa purposes We must have to keep your photographs during the time of on-arrival There are options for taking the photographs Have a hard copy of the photograph beforehand also keep the xerox of our passport They will ask it and also the xerox of hotel confirmations and per person you've to keep 10,000 Baht as show money For families, you've to keep 20,000 Baht as show money Sometimes they won't inquire you about the show money ans sometimes they won't accept the credit cards So if possible try to keep dollars which is equivalent to 10,000 Baht or 10,000 Baht itself in your hand Money transferring is possible within the airport but it is possible after completing the immigration process You can get out of the airport only after taking the visa Before that, you've to show the required amount during immigration If possible try to collect the dollars in case of non availability of Thai Baht from anywhere Dollars are acceptable in everywhere So you can convert the dollars to Thai Baht after the immigration This is the point to note out in the case of visa Next is the case of airlines It is best to choose Air Asia while traveling from your home town There are two airports in Bangkok Suvarnabhumi Airport (BKK) and Don Mueang Airport (DMK) These two airports are very near to each other and they are separate airports thus interconnection is no possible with these Indigo airlines is another option from Kerala which is also available from Bangalore as well as Mumbai to Bangkok and Phuket Thus your arrival is at BKK airport From Kochi, Air Asia will land at DMK airport DMK has only this facility Metro link is available in BKK and is not available in DMK Bus service is there in DMK If you opt for Metro, you will have to take a bus from DMK and get off somewhere at the nearest MRT Taxi service are also available from both the airports The main reason to point out the metro link is that it is the journey with low cost compared with other modes because I was traveling by metro If you book the hotel near by the metro station then you can directly go to your hotel via metro within a low cost I booked a hotel in the Makkason area of ​​Bangkok I also got off at Bangkok Airport (BKK) and reached Makkasan area by metro. So this is the reason to point out the metro link Other than Air Asia, one can reach Bangkok by Indigo, Sri Lankan airlines, Scoot, Silk Air and so on You can also choose Indigo Airlines which will have a layover in in Bangalore and from there to Bangkok Several airlines are there from South India The reason for the direct travel is that if you choose Malaysian airlines in which you will spend extra minutes or hours in Malaysia for a 45 minutes travel Transfer in between flights is a huge loss Malaysia to Thailand is around a 45 minutes journey So it is better to take a direct flight to Thailand and also it won't affect your next day trip You'll get tired after the round trip Since it was budget airlines, rate is normal These are the tips related to airlines Next I'm detailing about the places in Thailand As you know there are many places in Thailand and the well known famous places are Bangkok and Pattaya Everyone will tell about these places at first These are well known places in Thailand Besides that there are other places in Thailand In the south part, the tourist places like Phuket, Krabi, Phi Phi Island are there The distance between Bangkok and Phuket are around 600-700 km From Bangkok it is having a whole night bus journey to Phuket Your whole Thailand trip will depends on your planning Some explore only Bangkok and Pattaya and return back Some explore only Phuket others will explore both Phuket and Krabi There are those who see all this together and come back When this happens it will increase your trip cost and the day too So you've to create your itinerary according to your convenience I will share my places of visit Anyway I'm going to Thailand Once I see a country, I will not go there I explore Thailand in a detailed way I'm not sure if I'll get there again, so I saw the places in a detailed way I went directly to Phuket and from there to Phi Phi island I visited Phi Phi by ferry and through ferry I visited Krabi Arrived in Bangkok by flight from Krabi I returned home from Bangkok This is how my Thai itinerary was Due to lack of time, I avoided to visit Pattaya This is how I created my itenary According to your itenary, you've to book the tickets If you're planning only to visit Bangkok, you can directly come and visit it Or else If you're planning to visit Bangkok and Phuket, so you have to take care about the return ticket So you're arriving at Bangkok and your return ticket is from Phuket You can also do the reverse booking ie; arriving at Phuket and the departure is from Bangkok Domestic flights within Bangkok are cheaper You can travel within the Bangkok in a rate of 2,000 to 3,000 Air Asia is there for the Domestic journey purposes Domestic airports like Krabi, Pattaya, Phuket The journey back and forth here and there is very short and it's cheap too Night bus service is available in these places, if you're choosing to travel by bus So you can travel the inner areas of Thailand in such a way Next I'm detailing about some places and their importance I did a detailed video about the places that I visited Links are available in the description box If needed you can check out the videos Quickly tell the way I went Phuket Places to visit in Phuket: a beach, Pa Tong beach Bangla street, it's a walking street and also a Big Buddha and moreover Wat Chalong Temple is also there In addition we can visit old Phuket town a hill and some more places too This is the main thing to see here in Phuket There is a place named Phi Phi Island and it starts from here From the south side of Phuket you've to take the ferry to reach the phi phi island You can also go back to Phuket from here Or you can go straight to Krabi from Phi Phi You will get accommodation facilities in Phi Phi Phi Phi Island is the interconnection of many islands like Monkey Island, James bond Island and so on The link of the detailed video regarding this will be dropped in the description box Next is Krabi Here you can find a natural hot spring pool in which you can enjoy with hot water around 40 degrees In addition an Emerald pool is also there which constitute hot water with 50 degrees Tiger cave temple in which you have to climb approx 1200 steps Krabi walking street is there Krabi town and so on Next destination is Bangkok It is the main area in Thailand Places like Floating market, Grand Palace, Wat Po, Metro, city train are all there in Bangkok It is a 3 hour drive from Bangkok to Pattaya You can also travel by bus which will costs approx 100 - 150 Baht If you're staying for a couple of days in Pattaya, then you need to take separate ticket from Bangkok to Pattaya and return back from there to Bangkok by bus If you are planning to go to Pattaya for one day only From Bangkok you can seek the help of any tour agent and they will take you to Pattaya They'll take you to Pattaya in the early morning and come back after doing one or two water activities and the beach. You can also get a package by adding Tiger Zoo within that trip Such options are also available Don't get confused Since it's a known country, thus I'm going in a little hurry in detailing These are the things to see in Bangkok and Pattaya I can also give you an extra tip Bangkok is a crowded city It is an area that takes a lot of time to get from one place to another So it's better to go as early as possible There in a canal in Bangkok and there is a metro station named Saphan Taksin a boat service is there beside to this metro station The boat service I traveled at that journey was Boat4u named company 1 day ticket costs 200 Baht 24 hours ticket Since boat service is available only in the morning, we can't take the service for 24 hours So we'll get only 12 hours If you get into the boat during morning, you can get down anywhere at anytime within these 6-7 stops This is the main peculiarity of this boat service So you won't get hault in between the traffic If you're staying beside the metro station, go to Saphan Taksin metro station and enjoy this boat service Thereby you can easily visit Grand Palace and the nearby places also you can visit the historical spot such as Wat Po You can also purchase from the biggest trade center in Bangkok As soon as we board the boat, they give us a map and a brochure It includes the places to visit in each stops These stops has its own tourist attractions After visiting these spots you can return back by this boat to Saphan Taksin and then to your room By going this way you can cover the major attractions in Bangkok town within a single day A floating market is also there in addition to these An old train service is also there In different areas of Thailand you can find many other activities like Pub, bar and so on You can also enjoy these activities too Next is about the safety Nothing to fear and you have the freedom to enjoy in Thailand You can walk down anywhere at any time during the night Robbery is also there You've to give extra care for that, otherwise it is safe to travel and there is nothing to fear about You can also get a rent a bike in Krabi, Phuket and Pattaya Take an IDP with you when you go In case of accident its necessary There is no other problem as long as the accident does not happen Rent a bike will costs around 200 Baht I'm not preferring this in Bangkok because its a crowded city But Phuket and Krabi is not that much crowded and you can also travel with this bike You can go everywhere but it is necessary to carry IDP along with you It is useful when you come across some accidents in between Otherwise you've to go with it which will definitely affect your entire trip So be careful while driving I rented a bike during the journey But I drove it carefully Traveling by bike is cheaper than calling a taxi back and forth within Phuket Once the bike is taken care of and ridden, there are no major problems While renting a bike, you've to surrender your passport or $ 100-200 It depends upon the company that you're renting it Most of the time you have to look at the review of the bike rental company to approach them By going so, places to are more easier and risky too So better to read the reviews before approaching There are some hotels/hostels in which they will provide the service for rent a bike If it is available from your place of stay, then try to arrange it from them It will be some more convenient than other This is the main point regarding rent a bike service and their safety Next is the case about hotel You can book the hotels accordingly through the sites booking.com, agoda.com and all Please do read the reviews before booking If you're visiting there as a bachelor group, then its better to take hostels You can book the hostel with 5-8 members for a single room Per day you can stay there in any hostels within a range of about $ 5-10 You can find such hostels everywhere And more a normal 3 * hotel may range from 700 - 800 Baht But the hostels will be around 200 - 250 Baht which may vary according to their quality You can seek the help of Google review as well and also you can also choose the hostel with 8-9 point rating in Booking.com thus you'll get such a good facility hostel over there Due to the plenty of hotels, it's better to read the reviews before booking it So I can't suggest which hotel is good in Thailand So many hotels are available there As I said read the Google reviews before booking the hotels Thus the range for 3* hotels will be around 600 - 800 Baht If you go for standard ones, it will costs approx 1,000 - 1,200 Baht and you'll get a rooms with 3* facility starting price will be around 600 Baht Most of the South Indians frown when they hear that it is Thailand and look at it with a smile. There is no need to look at that I do not know if there is another country in the world that welcomes so many tourists You've that much of freedom there because tourist are the main asset in Thailand So no need to look towards with another eye That kind of thing is happening in every country So you don't have to look at Thailand in that one way Each and every south Indians will laugh when someone is saying about Thailand No need to see in that way Try to see everything as positive There are many things you can do in Thailand that you think you can't walk In India, it is not possible to sit, feed or even take a photograph with a tiger in which there is no such facility available in India In Thailand there are options like you can feed a Tiger in the Zoo Here you can take a photo with the crocodile You can do so many adventurous activities during the Thailand visit If you want to take a big snake in hand it is possible over there Likewise you can do several such activities from Thailand Sea activities like Scuba diving, Paragliding are available in Thailand opens for tourists We can learn how Thailand attract tourists and how to live with tourism So we should not frown but respect them Taken in a good way, and then everything will be fine Each country has their own pros and cons We do not need to look at it In my opinion there is no need for anyone to frown in going to Thailand It's a good country in which you can go with your family or even as bachelor No need to worry about being safe even if you are going with family It's a good country to visit So you can take the tickets to visit Thailand after the corona They can't live without tourism and they don't have any other major resources like tourism So its essential for them Apart from my detailing tips, there may be some more restrictions after this pandemic situation In the near future we've to take a vaccine for the Corona pandemic which is similar to the vaccine for yellow fever in African region We may have to take the corona vaccine card while travelling These are the next options and that'll consider later So beware of these tips as I said If it opens and if it is useful, then you can easily utilize these tips accordingly If you're planning to visit after my tips or else it anyone knows more than what I explained in this video please do comment in the chat box accordingly You can also point out the mistakes that I made
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2020.09.23 14:27 leeannbeck My ex just told me they are trans. I'm trans.

Let's get to the point. I am AJ, short for James (pronouns he/him). M and I have known each other for nine years, together for seven of them. When we first met, M presented as a cisgender man and I presented as a cisgender woman. I broke up with M two years ago, and we stayed friends. M still is heels over head in love with me, M loves me very much.
(I know this is the wrong subreddit and myexistrans is invite only. I just need to get this out on what else I can do to support M, so bear with me for the time being.)
For the past three years, M has known I am transmasculine nonbinary. M also had their struggles about me being transmasc nonbinary--constantly being worried that I'd never wear dresses/lingerie/bras/panties ever again, I'd never have periods again, I'd never have breasts and a vagina again, I'd never have long hair again, etc. Considering that M reiterated that M did accept and love me being myself as transmasc nonbinary, this glaring contradiction was confusing as hell for me. Some of the comments M made offhand were transphobic and/or some of what M did triggered my gender dysphoria, and we had several conversations/arguments about it but M never seemed to really process and understand it.
(To be fair, M was having some serious substance abuse issues during this time, being high and/or drunk, and this was one of the biggest factors in why I left M. M was just not "all there" for so much of it.)
Over those three years, M also increasingly made their femininity more prominent. Crossdressing, makeup, specific comments M made... the little things were adding up. None of it bothered me, I was supportive and nonjudgmental.
Well, sure enough, M came out as trans (MTF) to me earlier tonight, pronouns she/hers/they/them.
M confessed that as much as she accepted me for who I was and am, she realized those transphobic comments about my transition stemmed from some deep-seated fears and insecurities she had. M was raised Roman Catholic, now 41 years old, and the father of four gorgeous children (ages 20, 14, 12, 8; the oldest two on the west coast with M from M's first ex, and the youngest two several states away with M's second ex).
(1) M strongly feels that she will never be able to transition... ever, and that I will be the only one in her life to ever know and see her for who she truly is.
Even though M is my ex, it just breaks my heart hearing that from her, trans person to trans person. Most of the folks in my life have been nothing but very supportive since I came out to them as trans.
I asked M why she feels this way, and M said she's afraid of being judged, being abandoned, being rejected. M's also afraid that M's second ex will do her damnedest to bar M from seeing the younger two kids whatsoever because M knows her very well and the ex is quick to judge. M has a difficult time making friends, let alone finding other gender nonconforming/trans adults in their early 40s that M can talk with.
M told me that her feeling of being never able to transition subsequently led her to also feel that the closest she would ever get to being a woman for herself was if I still had my breasts and my vagina when I was in bed with her, if I wore dresses/lingerie/bras/panties, if I had periods, etc. Basically, M was living vicariously through me the whole time and I didn't realize it. I was (and still am) M's image of the ideal woman M wanted (and wants) to be. M sees herself in me. M is only now beginning to realize that the transphobia she internalized from society about herself, she was projecting it on to me.
(2) It is for those reasons cited above in #1 (and quite a few other reasons) that M told me that she has such a difficult time letting me go... even though it has been over two years since we last broke up. M is afraid that M would never find any other person who would "get it" and love her for who she is. M is the sort of person who just has to have a life partner, M doesn't want to be single.
(3) Within hours of telling me she's trans (MTF), M repeatedly sent me photos of her trying to do sexy poses in lingerie, each time she would ask me if this or that turned me on, and in between she'd say, "Can I be your girl? Just you and me again?"
I tried explaining to M a few times that we're exes, that I am not turned on, I am not interested in receiving those pictures, and that I am not interested in dating or sexual activities whatsoever with anyone for the time being. I did a heavy emphasis to her that I am trying not to burst her bubble and me not being turned on does not necessarily mean that she is "not hot/good/sexy/pretty" as a woman (because of the timing how she just came out as trans to me a few hours prior, I was trying to be as considerate as possible).
Here is what I have done.
Here are my questions, focused on how to support M.
Thank you!
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2020.09.23 13:04 FatalAxolotl [LFM][5e][FoundryVTT][PAID] Icewind Dale: Rime of the Frostmaiden

SOME SECRETS ARE WORTH DYING FOR
In Icewind Dale, adventure is a dish best served cold.Beneath the unyielding night sky, you stand before a towering glacier and recite an ancient rhyme, causing a crack to form in the great wall of ice. Beyond this yawning fissure, the Caves of Hunger await. And past this icy dungeon is a secret so old and terrifying that few dare speak of it. The mad wizards of the Arcane Brotherhood long to possess that which the god of winter’s wrath has so coldly preserved—as do you! What fantastic secrets and treasures are entombed in the sunless heart of the glacier, and what will their discovery mean for the denizens of Icewind Dale? Can you save Ten-Towns from the Frostmaiden’s everlasting night?
The Dungeon Master:
Hello there! I’m Axolotl, I’ve been DMing for a solid 9 years (1.5 professionally), with experience with homebrew and modular campaigns. I enjoy a good story with lots of room for character development, role-play, and combat. I enjoy it when my PCs roam, freedom is everything in this game. I also love players with wacky ideas or a purpose! I am very active and open to any suggestion, if it does not ruin others experience. I'm down for meeting new people and having a great time dungeon crawling, fighting monsters, and saving the multiverse, one mimic at a time.
Character Creation:
You will start at level 1! Expect the campaign to end around level 11.
With options from:
- Player's Handbook
- Xanathar's Guide to Everything
(Ask first for)
- Volo's Guide to Monsters
- Guildmasters' Guide to Ravnica
- Wayfinder's Guide to Eberron
- Critical roll or UA
For ability scores you may take the average (15, 14, 13, 12, 10, 8), or use the 5E 27 point buy system.
Being close to the Spine of the World, Goliath characters will have extra flavor and particular Tribal heritage we may talk about if you select the race.
IMPORTANT: After being selected to play, you will need to draw a secret from me. You will be allowed only one mulligan and the secret may have serious implications for the character and it's creation.You also will roll on a unique trinket table, I also have no shortage of extra flavor and even a chronicle hinted to in the Primer I will provide to help flesh out an in depth backstory.
Price:
$15 per person, per session. The first session and session zero will be free to see if you would like to continue. Payments must be made before the session.
By supporting me and the game, you allow me to spend more time creating a more in-depth experience for you and your fellow companions. These are some of the things your money will get you:
- Help with character creation. This includes class options, backgrounds, races, feats, multi-classing, or anything else discussed in the PHB.
- Hours of invested time insuring a free to roam open world, detailed NPCs, fleshed out towns, and a knowledge of the Realms.
- Combat maps for encounters.
- Extensive collection of tokens.
- An in-depth theater of the mind experience.
- Dynamic Lighting for those dungeon crawls.
Final Notes:
-We will be using DISCORD for voice chat. Please make sure you have a good mic/headset for communication.
- Attendance is very important to any role-playing game. That said, I know life gets in the way, and we all have adult responsibilities. I know you are going to miss a game or two, I get it. But please don’t be the person who is always late or never shows. It ruins the game experience for everyone and making up excuses why the PC is always missing gets old fast.
- Playing D&D is about cooperation between your teammates and the DM so please, come in with an open mind, and a positive attitude.
- Please, no rules lawyers, I try to follow the RAW as best I can, but sometimes for sake of story and fun I gloss over them. "The Code is more what you call guidelines..."
- No "lone-wolf" mentality! This is a game about teamwork, it ruins others experience if one person is always a glory hog or taking all the loot for him/herself.
- I have already spent hundreds of dollars and 40+ hours on the campaign before it has started so please come with intent to have some fun and to stick around!
- You do not need to have a character idea already to apply! I have long and dedicated chats with all my players before the game to flesh out an idea you love.
Warning: This campaign has taken immense inspiration from horror films and novels. There will be sections of the adventure that will play out and feel like a horror movie, I will be having a talk at session zero about phobias and triggers to stay away from. A strong theme of this campaign will be Isolation. While your characters will and very much should feel stressed and anxious, I aim to have my players having fun and relaxed. That being said, maintaining a horror atmosphere requires you as players to keep that precedent, a throwaway remark or joke in the middle of a scene may entirely ruin the buildup. If you do not think you can handle this theme or keep yourself engrossed in the mood, please refrain from applying.
Metagaming will not be tolerated. If you recognize a monster or know a location, keep it to yourselves and do not ruin it for others, some will not know these facts, let them enjoy it.
The Session zero is planned to be Sept 26th at 5PM MT(This is also the planned time for all sessions), unless more players are needed, it will then push on to the next Saturday and so on.
Contact:
If you are interested in my game, please message me on Discord at Fatal Axolotl#6230. This is the easiest way to contact me. If you want more info of me, visit my website at https://fatalaxolotl.wixsite.com/home
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2020.09.23 11:56 Pahlan Very late August report

A very late report for August, where I once again played a lot of games on PC, mostly from Game Pass. Also bought some games on Switch in anticipation of my vacation in September (the reason for my delayed report).

The Touryst (PC, Game Pass)

Observation (PC, Game Pass)

Last Day of June (PC)

The Magic Circle (PC)

Wandersong (PC)

SuperHot Mind Control Delete (PS4)

Erica (PS4, PS Plus)

Fall Guys: Ultimate Knockout (PS4, PS Plus)

The Gardens Between (PC, Game Pass)

Sunset Overdrive (PC, Game Pass)

Paratopic (Switch)

Sayonara Wild Hearts (Switch)
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2020.09.23 06:03 Justfantastic93 Okay, I (26m) just can’t make any sense of ex gfs (27f) behavior

FYi: if this post too long for y’all, I’ll gladly shorten and repost although I’d rather get some advice from this one as it has all the details I believe are necessary.
Basically, we had a really fun relationship. Just so you know, we did love together. Our relationship consisted of constant joking, laughing (and I mean I’ve never made any single human laugh more than her) , deep intimacy/bonding and great sex. We definitely were, and still are a good fit for each other. Unfortunately, when we were hitting a rough patch I decided to play a shit-ton of video games, which resulted in me ignoring her. The issue began with that then that she started to feel like an object because when I got done gaming Id always immediately want to have lots of sex, which is partly due to my medication (adderall). This led to me drawing up far fetched conclusions, becoming insecure and becoming a different guy who was clearly afraid of the end. I’ve been disappointed in myself because I knew how to handle the situation better but selfishly acted rude and also how great our relationship was and how much potential we had to grow together.
Since breaking up, we’ve had a few encounters. First episode being a month after breakup and we were talking daily. Ended up going out of the country for 12 days and couldn’t use my phone but called found a way to call her 3 times. When I got home, she instantly suggested brunch the same day and the way she was texting me reminded me of the good ole days and how she used to treat me. I should’ve brought her handpicked flowers cuz she always told me she wanted me to surprise her with that, but I didn’t. The date didn’t go as anticipated... she seemed to have her guard up and I was being too reserved. Ended up spending the whole day together but ended with a feeling of disappointment. Perhaps she was still mad or I didn’t make proper moves to reignite the Romantic flame we naturally have.
We begin texting less and becoming more distant. Really, I wasn’t sure if I should have been texting her more or giving her space. Obviously the giving space route didn’t work cuz she ended up getting a rebound bf that tragically ended after 3 days. When she told me, it was devastating. I became quite emotional and shower weakness while trying to fight for her love. Looking back, I believe I should have forced myself to brush it off, tell her I’m happy for her and go about my business. I bet she would’ve came back after her fairytale rebound ended yet I acted childishly. She said I was actin like a little bitch and I explain to her how fucked up her actions were when I was vulnerable. We have a blowout and end up refusing to speak to each other for a while.
About 45 days later, I’m getting hammered with my Holmie and have him text her about me. I’m not sure how that conversation went but I ended up getting a call from her the next day. She just says don’t lie you’ve been trying to get ahold of me. After getting yelled at for 20sh minutes, the conversation begins to shift. I begin to admit how badly I wanna get together and have another chance before she ends up getting snagged by someone else. She was flattered and admitted that she was trying to find someone who was just like me and looked like me, but wasn’t me. As the conversation goes on, she warms up more and more and eventually invites me to sleep over. When we hug for the first time, it lasts at least 5 minutes. Although she already had a little to drink at this point, we begin to drink more. She confessed that she had been pregnant with my kid but ended up miscarrying... We had a really fun night and connected again except for not having Sex with and she realllllly wanted it badly.
The next morning we wake up around 11 and she has this really sad/scared look on her face like everything that happened the night before was a mistake... this leads to me suggesting we drink the rest of our liquor just to lighten the mood. instead of talking to her and showing her why we’re great together, my dumb ass falls back asleep. Around 2:30, I wake up to her dad calling her out of her room to talk to her, and then to get screaming at me to get out of her house. Honestly, It was the first time I felt like I was sleeping home since breaking up and had the best night of sleep since the breakup. Still, my dumbass should’ve gave her attention. She probably felt like I was playing video games and ignoring her over again, minus the sex. I end up texting her later that day to tell her how sorry I was and also if I knew she was pregnant or that she had my kid that I’d go to the ends of the earth to give them the best life I could. I get no response which concludes that episode..
The next few months, I get phone calls randomly from her screaming about what went wrong and I agree with her because I’ve already been reflecting on how I sabotaged our relationship. At some point, she said she was moving to another state and moving in w/ her sister. A few more months pass and the only thing she’s done is reach out to my friends asking about me, to see me and seeing if I’ve snapped out of the heavy depression I fell into since we split
A few more months pass and I hear nothing; yet the feelings I have just won’t go away. It’s not that I don’t wanna move on, I think it’s just that we both have a special place in each other’s hearts. Eventually, I began to think that maybe she didn’t love me like she made me believe when we were together. Then, about a full year later I get a call from her stating she wants to video chat on IG. The crazy thing about her calling that day was how close I was to breaking the silence and calling her instead. For some reason, I just had good vibes thinking about her and how she’s respond if I reached out but decided I’d wait a full 90 days of no-contact to talk to her. Well, that same day she called and I’m starting to believe we may rest have some sorta connection that can tell how we feel about each other or how the other ones feeling in general. There were a lot of indicators that made me believe we had something special and developed a telepathic connection. I can’t remember specifics but there were Too many times when we were together where she’d say what I was thinking or vice versa.
It was amazing taking a stroll down memory lane and talked about how much fun we had and all the good times spent together. Truly awesome reliving those moments with her. As the conversation progresses, it’s only getting better and she confesses ‘ I love you so much. Like I love you so much’ I was kinda stunned but I’d be lying if i said anything besides ‘i love you’ back. She just kept on saying it through out the rest of the conversation and when I told her I missed her she replied ‘I shouldn’t admit this.... but I miss you too’. With her admitting she shouldn’t confess she misses me made me realize shes been fighting the urge to contact me and that she hasn’t always been honesty with what she tells ppl on how she feels about me. She claimed that she had thought everything through and the nature of what kind of talk we’d need to have on getting back together. We decided I’d come out and visit her in the state she moved to soon. As lovely as that whole entire reconnection was, I had a feeling that she was gonna either test the dogshit out of me going forward or change her mind.
Although I ended up being right about getting the shit tested out of me, she also changed her mind. The next call we had I brought up the trip, which she reacted quite hesitant and unsure about. I should’ve dropped the whole entire discussion about me visiting her or us being a couple again because obviously she was FaceTiming me for hours for good reasons. Once again, I shoulda read in between the lines. She ended up saying things like ‘do you think that maybe we should just be like really really really good friends’, ‘I don’t know what to do about us’ and ‘your making me really sad talking about this’. Looking back on that convo, I was clearly putting too much pressure on her and should have just rolled with the flow. I honestly think she was willing to talk again and see where things went, or to leave the door open for the future. After she said she couldn’t say no but didn’t wanna say yes a few times, I kept on changing the subject to ‘us’ or ‘the trip’ while doing my best to convince her to give things another shot. What’s making me sad is that I forgot how I won her over in the first place, which was with patience and letting our relationship flow at her pace. Well, the begging and ‘convincing’ led to a very sad look on her face and tears forming in her eyes. she paused- blew me a few kisses and hung up the phone.
A few days later, I texted her just to talk and this time nothing in particular, knowing that I was about to get an answer I wasn’t looking forward to. She hit me with a ‘look I’m not trying to be with you right now. I’m going to be engaging in other love interests’. I replied with ‘oh that’s cool I was just hitting you up to tell you that if it can’t be talking on a romantic level, I don’t think it’s good for my personal healing’, which was not really what I was planning to say. She wished me the best with my healing and I respond with ‘thanks. Ya uh good luck with your ‘new love interests’’ and followed that up by blocking her. After being blocked, she didn’t make a single Instagram post for about 3.5 weeks which is by far the longest she’s gone with out posting since I’ve known her . (Ik I couldn’t help but stoop on her profile from time-to-time)
Recently saw her profile and that she has a new boyfriend and made a new friend that’s a girl. I’m happy for her about the girl she’s friends with because she was always sad about not having more girlfriends around. I ended up unblocking her and tried to reach out saying that i needed to talk and it was important. She assumed it was about problems and said she was too overwhelmed dealing with other ppls problems as it was and that she had a bf. I kinda made a smart ass remark about how funny she’d assume it’s about problems and that she was wrong. For some reason, I just said to her fine I don’t gotta tell you if you don’t want to and she got upset and hit me with ‘fine ****, don’t tell me then’. She followed up that response by blocking me and I’m still blocked as we speak. . As for the boy, he’s 3 years younger than her and he does in fact seem quite similar to me and have similar interests. She’s only posted one picture of them so far (she posted like 10-15 of me or me/her pics when we started) and I get the feeling she may kick his ass to the curb soon. I could be wrong, but it’s just a feeling. I think he’s too young for her and she really is a bit much to handle as it is, but that ‘bit much’ to handle is just one more thing i love about her.
Alright if this is too long please tell me and I’ll make a way shorter version. I just started venting and didn’t stop. As for anyone who sat through this and will reply, what move can I make? I, for some reason, will not give up on her and I just want her to give me a real, honest chance again. This time, I’ll be her rock again like when things were amazing and the one she can always go to.
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2020.09.23 03:30 mfreeman3223 Advice I really wanted to give to new traders, im a new day trader myself but I take it very seriously,

Edit before you read: I have traded live for 3 months but had so strategy and switched to a new broker so I wanted to learn the platform so I went to paper on thinkorswim and took it most seriously, before you shit on this post its for new traders, newer than me that I'm 6 months in.
For starters im paper trading now dont shit on me for paper trading, I have 60k in savings at 23 im frugal and im not about to spend my savings because I was too dumb to dive, in. I traded live for 3 months swing trading, I know how the emotions feel, and anyone who tells you paper trading is the same as live trading is lying.
You dont learn to fly a plane getting thrown in the cockpit? You go in a simulator first.

Paper trading is not the same as live trading but at least it lets you know how you need to think, it helps you more clearly develop a strategy otherwise if you dive in thinking you know it all you will get punched in the face before you re-think your entire process & yes that happened to me.
ANYONE who makes posts on Reddit talking about their success 99% are BS posts I have been trading for 6 months now I study & learn new golden nuggets every day and I still don't know shit in fact no one knows anything or no one knows what's gonna happen next. 99% of reddit, some twitter posts, stock twits, are BS everyone's insecure and whats advice when to sell and buy or what to sell and buy everyone follows the crowd, I barely come on these types of pages and this is why. Chat rooms are basically BS everything is a big ball of BS, come back to me in 5 years when I know more than I do now & ill tell you im still learning.
The best way to describe it to me is.. think of most of the trading community as a corporate job, everyone discusses what the other person is doing, said, gossiping, talking shit, coming up with theories, spreading rumors, lies. Where if you sat in your cubicle with your 1 homie and focused on shit together you probably would be better off shit, if you're by yourself that's okay too. Trading is very lonely I can see I'm very new to it but I can see to what it is. A friend brought it on to me but I took it very seriously from the start, I took a month of educating before even buying my first share, he's more of an investor with no motive or interest to do his own research, he doesn't have the funds to day trade but even basic fundamentals or charting skills he has none, zero.
If I go anywhere on any chat room any comment section, people will ask whats your PT, when should I sell? how do you know this? that? Its easy to get lost and I truly and learning every day but the biggest help for me has been putting 11 sticky notes on my screen to remind me to sit on my hands. I have journaled every trade since the first one & I suggest you do as well, I go over what I did wrong, right, what I will improve on next time. I record every single trade and go over it at the end of the day, I go over all my trades at the end of the week, I meditate and prepare psychologically for a good day, if I wake up late I woke to go on the computer and trade I will go on a walk before my coffee come back stretch meditate and trade. Patience is key, persistence is key. Im breaking even all the time, I'm paying market tuition but I'm learning, I very strong risk management, I stick to really 2 strategies and if they are not there I won't trade.
Things to take note of or reminders for your trading:
  1. Don't be impatient - sit on your damn hands & wait for A+ setups
  2. Have a plan, don't FOMO jump in. If you do wait for a pull-back and make sure you have a plan
  3. chat rooms will fuck with your head, you're never going to be a good trader with that shit around, unless you really really have a small group and extremely supportive of your millions of answers but even then your almost looking for the 'answer' for it all. This being said there is exceptions where some discord channels have excellent education tabs or groups online do, go on youtube go look at blogs don't go to one source go to a bunch and go for what feels right for YOU.
  4. log your trades, you will thank yourself for this I go over exactly where I entered by using a screen shot of the trade itself, entry and exit. A lot of traders use excel sheets with a boatload of numbers and criteria but personally that's not for me it may be for you, Im more of a visual learner. I mark what I did right, what went wrong, what I could have done better, where was SPY at the time of the trade, what was the ATR of the stock, short interest, float, market cap, news, did I mark previous areas of value? important areas of support and resistance? I will edit this photo with blocks showing the type of stregy it was, what I will do and prepare for next time, did I take a start position? Did I scale out of my position immediately when I saw a profit? was I eyeing level 2? I found in logging my trades I used to put all the bad trades and then one good one, now I only put the good trades and screw the bad ones as humans we naturally focus on our failures and remember them so why not hone in on our successes and what exactly about it to the tee made it a winning trade for me? I also rephrase words like "loss" to "cost of doing business" like people say think of it as market tuition, loss is just such a harsh word there is no way to look at that otherwise. I promise you making your own playbook of your best trades will be the best thing you can do, especially screen recording. I will see trades and this light pops in my brain saying this is your playbook trade you cant skip out on this, I enter and before I even enter the trade due to the ATR i know exactly the max I could lose multiplying - # of shares X my cents I'm risking below support. and the ATR shows me my expected PT for the trade. This is just what I do, regardless it doesn't matter find what suits you, but If you're paper trading and not logging your trades and just doing it mentally your wasting your time.
  5. if / then statements - couldn't be any more helpful if you dont know where your getting out then why are you even getting in, again trading is simple but it sure isn't easy, buy at support / sell at resistance right? Seems life changing & so easy when your first see those things then you try to determine good risk reward opportunities and your in the heat of the moment chasing things and messing up but you can look at the chart later and say oh, "if only I bought here" patience is so so key, it really is. I have to instill it every day, I am so new to trading but I do everything I can to better myself every day, and all my mistakes are psychologically and dealing with just how I handle myself, the impulsiveness, the hesisitation, trading too large, overtrading, these are all the things that mess me up and they will do that to you too. So be aware of yourself that's the best thing you can do as a trader. Your trading journey is identifying where you go wrong not the market, it just makes opportunities all damn day, its you to capitalize on those, flow with the tide not against it.
  6. talk to yourself - yes literally out loud. I screen record myself with my voice guiding my thoughts in that exact moment only so I can watch it later realize it didn't actually go down as fast as I felt like and think wow what an idiot what were you thinking... well! im thinking out loud so I can actually hear my damn mistakes.
  7. Most importantly do you even love trading? - If you are influenced by the money only and simply have no interest in trading you're going to fail simple as that, my dad forced me to do so much shit in my life, yeah I was good at them but I was passionate enough to be great, this is the first time I have ever truly wanted to spend every single second doing something. From the morning I wake up, until my body tells me I can finish where I left off tomorrow**.**
  8. If you really love trading - learn to have balance - this is something I need to remind myself of. I have saved my money for a long time, trying to make my dad proud of something, not knowing what the fuck im doing with my life and going to be 24 in a few months. I have become obsessed with this, it really is the first time I dont want to watch movies, I dont want to play video games, I spend every breathing second learning how to trade better and learn more than I did the day before. I need balance and everyone does, dont let it control your life.
  9. Trading is a lonely and challenging aspect but what are you really in it for? - I love the challenging aspect of trading, I love that many people cant make it, I love most that It allows me to learn about myself, the way I psychologically deal with my mind and my day to day, how I handle hardships, how I face things within myself, I have always loved psychologically studying a couple of courses at community college and business but it brings them both together, it fascinates me.
  10. Dont get stuck on paper trading - As I said above the only reason I went to paper trading is because I wanted to learn my brokers platform, (thinkorswim) I wanted to hone in on one or two strategies which I currently am, I believe those who shit on paper trading started off live and once they got punched in the face revised and took that as the bias towards creating a strategy, i dont know everything but im not an idiot i already said this happened to me, so to not have a strategy and then switch to a new broker no knowing the platform will set you up your failure. Dont get stuck on paper trading though, set a time frame you want to be on it for I think 3 months is a good go, some people stay on it for a year and I dont think thats good, again you can ALWAYS go back.
  11. Paper trading is simply to format strategy and learn from your most common mistakes - All my mistakes right now majority of them come down to impatience because if you are patient and wait the opportunities there and you will just know if studied that set up enough, it will stare at you and almost say "buy me" those have litterly been my best moves that I have felt and are in my playbook where I recognized them and added them as good risk reward opportunities, its easy to want to buy everything and this is why I disregard most reddit posts and chat rooms its easy to say huh what is everyone buying before you know it you're clicking away and incorporating a strategy only resembling gambling, its like you're obsessing with the green on the screen. If this is really a problem for you, remove your P/L from the screen, if your broker wont let you remove it litterly tape a paper over that part of the screen a trader cares about risk / reward and good opportunities to benefit that's what gets you P/L not magically watching if it will be there.
  12. My favorite places to learn are.. If I had to choose two places for you to go as a new trader is SMB capital youtube videos - they are authentic/real / no BS and can guide you in the right way.
Chat with Traders Podcast - there is a little over 200 podcasts roughly 35-60 minutes each I have listed to 80 of them so far and I log notes and journal on them all - if you want to really hear how pro traders got started go here, what they do and how they do it, a lot of them you will find stuck with one thing, and do it very very well.
  1. My favorite trading books...
I have read trading in the zone by Mark Douglas, the Warren Buffett portfolio (just a basic book on warrens principles of investing and going with what you know, not checking your stocks every day and buying Stocks only if you plan on holding them for the long term) after reading this book is when I cleared up my portfolio and now only have large blue-chip companies mainly tech. I’ve also read price action trends by AL Brooks. How to day trade for a living by Andrew Aziz, Trading Psychology 2.0 by Brett Steenbarger, mindset by Carol S. Weck Is one of the best psychology books I’ve read it really is eye-opening to how you deal with things in boat trading and life. One good trade by Mike Bellafiore Owner of SMB Capital this book talks a lot about focusing on quality over quantity and identifying your mistakes And I am like 100 pages left of his second book called the playbook which has to do with journaling and tracking every single one of your trades and primarily having A separate journal where are you put only one trade from each day that really stood out to you and made sense and why. These last two books have been my favorite I think. If you’ve ever watched any SMB capital videos on YouTube you know how straightforward forward and authentic they really are.
Why did I make this post??? - I made this to remind you - the reader, I made it to remind myself. Im a big fan of progress in my life but also in seeing shit down to the core of what it really is. I made this because I saw someone post a BS story of how to make it as a trader and I see to many and it pissed me off.
there isn't a time where you just "make it" as a trader its not like oh here's your master's degree. Its something that gets crafted over time, real traders do one thing and only one thing very well. Wanna be traders follow everyone else, & learn to cry about how shitty they are or learn to sell courses, the best traders know how to adapt to every situation.
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2020.09.22 23:25 tegolflife International Amateur Golf Tour First In-Person Tournament/Meetup

Hello Fellow Golfers,
If you haven't heard there is a mainly reddit based virtual golf tournament that I run. Players can sign up wherever they are and compete weekly and bi-weekly. Currently Week 12 of the N.A. Open and the final week of the bi-weekly, point based tournament, The European Cup, are open for registration. The Winter Classic begins 10/8/20. Website to register is here: https://www.iagtournament.com/
After months of talk we have finally nailed down dates for our first in-person tournament! See below for details:
Dates: March 24-28, 2021
Location: Sea Trail Resort Myrtle Beach, NC
Number of Rounds: 6-7
Lodging: 2 Bed/2 Bath Condos. Double occupancy rooms. Or 1 Bed/1 Bath Condo.
FYI as of 9/20/20 1 Bed/1 Bath have run out. If more open up the option will be re-added on the registration form. Follow iagtour for updates.
Lodging Cost:
· Single golfers sharing rooms is $434
· GolfeNon-Golfer sharing 2 Bed/2 Bath is $569. I.e. two couples sharing a condo.
· GolfeNon-Golfer sharing 1 Bed Condo is $707. I.e. one couple has their own condo.
(Currently this option is not available since availability is limited and all available spots have been filled)
Cost includes green fees, cart fees, taxes, and surcharges
Playing schedule and courses:
· Thursday: Sandpiper Bay Golf Links (36 holes on a 27-hole course)
· Friday: Sea Trail Resort Jones Course
· Saturday: Pearl Golf Links (36 holes on a 27-hole course)
· Sunday: Sea Trail Byrd Course
Deposit amount is $136 per golfer and $272 per golfenon-golfer. Deposit are fully refundable up to 30 days before arrival.
Deposit deadline is October 31, 2020. Full balance is due March 1, 2021
Instructions on how to pay will be emailed soon.
Important: You must be a verified player on the tournament to be able to attend. This means that you must register and submit a score for at least 3 rounds on the I.A.G.T. If you are certain you can meet this requirement before the tournament date, please register. I am extending out some trust being so late in the year and winter coming. Reason being is because your tournament handicap will be used to plan pairings and calculate your net score and such. Also helps prevent the issues of sandbagging.
Also, join our chat room on Telegram to chat with some of the people you will be playing with. We talk a lot about golf so prepare those notifications! Here is the chat link: https://t.me/iagt1
If you have any questions comment below and I will try to answer them as best I can.
Can't wait to meet and play with everyone in person!!
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2020.09.22 23:00 AustralianChrono Virtual Drag Race Season 11: The Premiere Episode 1- Lip Syncing With A Bang, Baby!

Virtual Drag Race Season 11: The Premiere Episode 1- Lip Syncing With A Bang, Baby!
Sophie Srs smiles.
Hey Ladies, Gentlemen, and Everyone In Between...
I'm Sophie Srs.
And...
I am the Host of Virtual Drag Race.
Sophie screeches.
AHH! That feels so GOOD to say!
Welcome to the new Era.
We're starting off...
With a BANG.
Let's meet our next Monarch's...
I wonder if there are any old surprises along the way...
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Melodrama walks out in a huge ballgown that looks as if it is made of stars. Her hair is huge, glittering and her makeup, upon closer notice... appears to have stars detailed among her face.
"Oh, the drama!" She gasps. "Oh, my... no one here but meeeeeeeeeeeeee!"
Melordrama: "My name is Melodrama, and I dare say I am the most dramatic Queen in the WOOOOOOOOORLD!" Lightning crack effects go on in the background. Melodrama smiles. "I'm a Drag Queen who is obsessed with extravagance. Big, Dramatic, Over The Top... I'm every theatre kid meeting Opera Singer in 1891. I'm known for my looks, the theatrics, and... that mug." Melodrama smiles. "Never anything basic because if you don't catch anyone's eye... why are you a drag Queen?!"
Melodrama sits carefully upon her seat. "NEXT!"
Frida Tits walks out in a big pink showgirl outfit. Feathers everywhere, big blonde hair and glamour galore, she grins. "Let it all in, baby!"
Frida Tits: "I'm Frida, and I'm the Tits!" Frida shakes her chest around smiling. "I'm 21, and from Calabasas...." The screen changes to reveal her age of 23, and that she's based in Vegas... "Whoops." She laughs. "I'm 23... and I'm a Showgirl. I'm known for being one of the best Dancing Diva's of Vegas, and the people KNOW my name. I'm iconic."
"A Drag Queen's Drag Queen!" Melodrama yells and extends her arm. "Melodrama."
"I'm just drama." Frida winks. "Love the gown."
"Love the headdress!"
"It's 1000 Plucked Ostrich Feathers. I hand pulled them myself." Frida smiles.
Melodrama: "Now... I don't know... if she's serious. But I love the theatrics!"
Rita Buk walks in dressed straight out of the 18th Century, in a gorgeous Vintage dress. "Why wait for Mr Darcy..." She smirks. "When you can be him AND Elizabeth!"
"Love a reference." Melodrama smiles.
Rita Buk: "My name is Rita Buk, and I love... to read books!" Rita grins. "I'm 26 and I am the Camp Queen of NYC. My Drag is obsessed with references- fashion forward, but polished, referential and campy... all in one. I'm a comedy Queen, and yes, I love to roast and read to filth. But I do so much more as well. I raise money for causes, I perform my butt off and in quiet times... I write my book, something I've been doing for... the last 10 years?" Rita laughs. "I'm doing this to distract myself from writing."
"Come on Pride and Prejudice!" Melodrama smiles.
"Wah?" Frida looks confused.
"Classic Literary Book..." Rita smiles. "Rita Buk."
"Melodrama." Melodrama smiles.
"FRIDA TITS!" Frida yells.
Rita's face drops. "Oh my!" She laughs.
In a huge latex Tan hat, and Gucci inspired bodysuit, Fame Fontaine struts in with BIG heels. "I'm here to Slay... not Just Play."
Fame Fontaine: "Remember my Name, children!" Fame smiles. "I'm Fame Fontaine, and yes, I'm dancing DIVA. I'm a Gay Man raised in an half African-American, half Italian family.... so yup, GURL." Fame laughs. "My Drag is a love letter to my Momma, 90s RnB inspired, dancing and funky. I love to look good, move well... and bite back like a fierce bitch when attacked." Fame winks.
"Oh, she's serving us VA VA VROOM!" Frida smiles.
"Always, baby." Fame winks.
"I'm Rita.." Rita smiles. "You are?"
"Remember the name. I'm... Fame." Fame winks.
"Love. It." Melodrama yells.
Hangry walks out in a huge, repetillian-esque meets Alien look. "I'm..." Suddenly, a monster bursts from her chest, and Frida yelps. "Here!" She smirks.
Hangry: "I'm Hangry, but some people just call me delicious." Hangry laughs. "I'm Hangry, and I'm a Drag Superstar. My Drag is all about playing with gender and innovation. I'm very dedicated to looks and I live for performing. I'm here because... well, it's time!"
"Welcome welcome!" Frida smiles.
Hangry: "There's some decent looking Queens here... but no one like me."
"It feels good to be here..."Hangry smiles.
"Oh, it's amazing." Melodrama smiles.
Avah Xtreme walks up in a suit made of huge, moving parts. A fishtank appears to go into her skin... it's weird, and it's cool. "They say i'm fishy, but I don't see it."
Avah Extreme: "My name is Avah Extreme, and I am a Club Kid Queen with a Modern Twist. I am 31, and I live in Houston, Texas. My drag is about iconic club kid influences but with a modern twist. I love the visual, because that's where my skills last. Standing still showcasing a look that transforms is just as exciting as lip syncer for your life, I truly believe."
"Momma!" Fame smiles and hugs Avah.
"Darling." Avah smiles.
Avah Extreme: "Oh, I love little Fame. Such a bright spark. She makes me feel old."
"There's some weird Queens this season... I LIVE for it!" Melodrama yells.
Fame Fontaine: "Ms Melodrama is SURE DRAMATIC, chile... It's cute, but a little bit down a notch."
Vebera Ahida walks out in a pair of lingerie, with fishnets on each of her (three!) legs. She touches her beard. "Hmm... Freaky."
"YES!" Hangry yells.
Vebera Ahida: "My name is Vebera Ahida, and I'm a freak, and proud." Vebera smiles. "I am 26 years old, but I've been travelling for years, so my hometown... is Delaware, but really, the road. I suffer from Polymelia, which means... I have an extra leg, and arm. So, you can see the freaky side.." Vebera smiles. "My drag is dramatic, theatrical, performance based, sexy, and always there to trigger reactions. I'm not no ordinary drag Queen."
"Hello friends." Vebera smiles.
"Welcome, welcome!" Frida yells. "You're here!"
"It feels phenomenal to be." Vebera smiles.
"I love the extra arm prop." Frida smiles. "I have one of those too!"
"Oh... it's all real." Vebera laughs.
Frida's face goes bright red. "Oh my..."
Vebera Ahida: "I knew i'd be seen as a bit... weird. Even among drag Queens, i'm the odd one out, I often feel."
Dame Gloria Devereaux walks out in a long shining gold gown, feather boa and a (faux) cigarette around her lips. "Frankly, my dears... I don't give a damn." She looks firmly around the room, looking as if she will transition to a smile... but it never happens.
Rita smiles.
Dame Gloria Devereaux: "My name is Gloria Devereaux, and for exactly forty three years, i've been involved in the drag scene in one way, shape, or form." Gloria smirks. "I am known for my Immaculate Looks, and Dedication to the Golden Age. I am a Master of the Classical forms of Drag. I've thrown my hat in the ring to show when a master of the classical styles of drag enters the competition, they will inevitably find themselves superior to the "lesser" forms of drag."
Rita smiles. "Hi Gloria!"
Gloria looks around, startled at some of the other Monarch's
"Oh, lovely!" Gloria smiles. "A normal one I know."
Rita Buk: "I know Gloria from NYC, she's a legend. She scares the crap out of me, but slowly... I worked out with her. I'd say she tolerates me, even if she's not a fan of my modern literary references.."
"Normal?" Vebera looks puzzled.
"There's just a few of you that... a bit Gauche." Gloria nods.
"Proud freak." Hangry sticks her tongue out.
"Eurgh." Gloria steps back.
Lola Scarlett shows up in a similar showgirl esque look- huge feathers, jewels everywhere... and big brown here. "Let's get lucky... and PLAY IT BIG!"
Lola Scarlett: "I'm Lola, and you're about to get LUCKY." Lola winks. "I'm a Vegas Showgirl who's always DOWN TO HAVE A GOOD TIME!" Lola smiles. "My drag is just... gorgeous. A lot of these Queens are pretty... but I'm prettier. A lot of those Queens are sexy... but I'm sexier. And a lot of these Queens are good... but I'm better."
"Another Classic Showgirl." Gloria nods. "Good to see."
Lola and Frida lock eyes with each other as Lola walks in. "HI!" Frida yells.
"Oooh, so you too know each other?" Melodrama smiles.
"Oh, I sure do know Frida." Lola smirks. "How's it going?"
"Oh, fabulous! I've missed you, Lola!" Frida smiles.
"Little Miss Frida, let's not lie here, in this competition." Lola smiles.
Lola Scarlett: "I know little Frida. She's notorious for being messy, and... thinking she's better than reality. I'm not afraid to call it out... starting with that tacky copy of my outfit."
Sally Bishop enters the werkroom in a gem-incrusted Apostolnik, and smiles and looks up to the roof. "Holy Queens do it better." Sally winks.
Sally Bishop: "My name is Sally, and I'm the Bishop of Drag!" Sally smiles. "I am a Devout Catholic Lesbian Bio Queen." Sally smiles. "I am a performer, inspired by the aesthetics of religious iconography. I love to look sharp, and unlike a lot of expectations of... older ladies like myself, I can MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE!"
"Oh, the religious dramatics!" Melodrama gasps.
"What's your name, Miss Glittery Jesus?" Lola smiles.
"Sally Bishop." Sally smiles.
"I love that name!" Rita grins.
"It's actually my birth name." Sally nods.
Gloria scrunches her face.
Gloria: "I just see... a woman wearing makeup now. It's not Drag."
Tribeca Sundance walks out in a gorgeous snake like dress, wrapped like a gorgeous toga. "Darling, I'm here."
Gloria grins.
Tribeca Sundance: "My name is Tribeca Sundance, and I am the Queen of the Theatre." Tribeca smiles. "Tribeca is all about elegance and poise. I'm inspired by the Golden Age of Hollywood, but I love to put in my culture, and have the Japanese Twist with it. I want to be one of the biggest actors in the world, and to me, Tribeca is the key. She is the Starlet on the Rise... and she's ready."
"Darling... welcome." Gloria smiles.
"Thank you." Tribeca grins.
"I know a theatre Queen when I see one..." Melodrama smiles.
"Marvellous." Tribeca takes out a black fan.
"Oooh, she's just as dramatic as ME!" Melodrama yells.
"Not quite... as much, girl!" Fame laughs.
"DU DUN DUN DUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNN!" Fraggot The Clown walks in with long red hair, and a tight bodysuit that shows off all her ass-ets... along with a huge breastplate. She raises a massive sword out of her wig, and turns around... revealing a beard and clown face paint. "SHE'S A CLOWNIN' AROUND TODAY... what's TOMORROW?!"
Melodrama yelps in joy.
Frida grins.
Yet again... Gloria gives stank face.
Fraggot The Clown: "Hi, My name is Fraggot, and today, I'm The Clown. I've been doing drag for... far too long in New York City. Fraggot is a character, first and foremost, and I live for playing that up. I'm a costume designer who loves to transform myself, and Fraggot is reflective of that. Some days, I'm the Clown, others, I'm the Hooker... I love to transform. I can be anything... but at it's core, Fraggot is ALWAYS Comedic. I'd say my best form of Drag is 80s Hevay Metal Clown with Sword. I love a sword."
"Oh, hey Ms Grandma!" Fraggot walks over to Gloria and extends her hand.
"I don't want to shake your hand." Gloria turns her face the other way.
"Oh." Melodrama gasps.
"I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE." Fraggot jumps to the ground. "Wah..." She starts to fake cry. "Oh no..." She turns around. "Where am I?"
"You're on Virtual Drag Race, baby!" Fame smiles.
"Wow." Fraggot gasps. "Wow..."
"I'm just going to sit back and watch..." Tribeca laughs.
Oh, Sophie!
"Oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhh...." Fame grins.
Hello my Gorgeous People!
Sophie Srs struts out.
Tribeca: "I see Sophie walk out, and I go.... UGH... the BEAUTY."
It feels amazing to be here, right now, looking at 12 of the best Drag Monarch's in America in front of me. We're starting with a bang. For your first mini challenge... it's time for a photoshoot with... me!
Everyone grins.
~
Lola Scarlett... darling, you work well with me. You're the winner of this week's mini challenge.
"I'd love to say I'm suprised, but i'm not!" Lola laughs.
My Lucky 12...
For this week's maxi challenge, we're going BIG. It's time for a Lip Sync Bonanza! Every single Monarch here... will lip sync against each other.
"Gasp." Melodrama says.
Each person will pair up and lip sync against one of SIX catergories. R&B Baby, Dance Pop, 80s Classic, Musical Queen, Rockin' Wild and... Country Charmer! Each person will lip sync against someone in a catergory. The Monarchs who win will be safe... and the bottom SIX will lip sync for their LIFE... and TWO will go home.
Frida Tits: "As the Winner of Ms Superstar Eleganza Lipsynka, I have no fear! The stars have foretold... I will win." Frida winks.
Lola... as the winner of this week's mini challenge, you get to choose your opponent.
Lola Scarlett: "Oh, I'm ready. I'm going to pick the old one. She's not a threat. Easy win!"
Gloria... as the chosen Queen... you get to pick the catergory, and who chooses their partner next.
Gloria smirks. "Musical Queen."
You get... 'My Favourite Things' from The Sound Of Music!
"Marvelous..." Gloria smiles.
Lola's face drops. "What is that choice..."
Who do you pick to choose their lip sync oppontent?
"I shall pick one of the nicest dressed Queens... someone I feel like deserves a choice. Miss Buk." Gloria nods.
"I want to pick someone who... looks like me, but for movies! Tribeca...?" Rita smiles.
Tribeca... what catergory do you pick... and who get's to choose next?
"I love a throwback. 80s Classic... and Melodrama, just because I want to see what she does!"
You both get... Gloria, by Laura Branigan.
Both smile.
Melodrama... who do you pick?
"Oh, she has the THEATRICS!" Melodrama raises her hands in the air. "AVAH!"
"Fun fun fun..." Avah nods. "Hmm... Let me go back to my roots. Country Charmer."
You both get... 'Man, I feel like a Woman!' by Shania Twain.
"Yeeeeee Haw!" Melodrama yells.
"I also pick my Country Family, Fame Fontaine." Avah grins.
"I love yeeeee!" Fame smiles. "Who's the fiercest performer? Who loves a show?"
"I love a show." Frida smirks.
"Frida it is then." Fame shrugs.
Frida... your choice?
"Dance Pop, Duh." Frida grins.
You both get... 100% Pure Love, By Crystal Waters.
"Let's do it." Fame smiles at Frida.
Who chooses next, Frida?
"I'm Hangry." Frida laughs. "Now THAT'S a good one."
Hangry...
"I love Clowns, and Fraggot looks fun." Hangry smiles.
"Call me Fraggot the Rockstar!" Fraggot winks. "I choose 'Rockin Wild, baby."
You get, 'Pour Some Sugar On Me' by Def Leppard.
"I need my guitar." Fraggot smiles.
That leaves Vebera Ahida and Sally Bishop.... you both get 'Ungodly Hour' by Chloe X Halle.
"Cute!" Vebera smiles.
"I love Gods." Sally grins.
Now... good luck my Monarch's... and Go Wild!
~
As they prepare for the challenge, Sophie comes to visit the werkroom.
Miss Tits...
"Sophie!" Frida smiles.
How do you feel about this challenge?
"I perform for a living. I know how to do this... in, out and over. I'm honestly feeling like... wow, I'm winning this."
Really?
"Like, I haven't told many people. But my mother received a premonition... when she conceived me." Frida looks at Sophie.
Oh...
"I... fully believe that this week is mine." Frida smiles.
And Miss Fame, your competition...?
"She's going to easily be one of the biggest performance threats. BUT...." Frida smiles. "I feel fine!"
Well, let's hope you meet the mark. I'm excited to see your skills darling.
"Thank you!" Frida smiles.
~
As they get ready for the main stage lip syncs, Gloria, Rita & Tribeca chat.
"So, Tribeca... may I ask where you achieved such..." Gloria turns to Tribeca. "Classical references."
"I was raised on Vintage Films. I acted in traditional kabuki and Noh drama at the Bellevue Japan Fair and doing local theater... my parents were obsessed with the days of old. Golden Age..." Tribeca smiles. "True aspects of Japanese Culture." Tribeca smiles. "We aren't all... POP CULTURE BAM Queens..." Tribeca rolls her eyes.
"I've actually read a book on the Golden Age of Japanese Cinema. Really exciting stuff... I might have it in my diary actually..." Rita turns to her desk.
"Your book?" Gloria looks at Rita.
"I journal. Every day, preemptively, and following. Manifest the positivity-"
"Oh, that manifesting stuff is nonsense, dear." Gloria shakes her head.
"I'd love to hear about it." Tribeca looks at Rita.
"I look at everything. Create my worlds. Reflect. Plan... manifest. Always pictures. It's kinda my cheat sheet to this... journey, here!" Rita laughs. "It's silly."
"If it does you well, it's not." Tribeca nods.
"I must say... upon hearing more details. It's quite smart. I had... a lover who loved to journal." Gloria powders her face. "Anywhom... let's prepare."
"Are you doing a Julie Andrews illusion?" Tribeca turns to Gloria.
"God, no. I would never lower myself to impersonating a celebrity for a profession." Gloria scoffs.
~
Sophie Struts the runway in a Gold Gown.
Hi, I'm Sophie Srs.. and I'm the Host of Virtual Drag Race.
She grins.
This week, our Monarch's will be gagging us in a lip syncing Extravaganza. And by side is an OG... lip sync diva, JUICE!
"The Juice is Loose!" Juice smiles.
Why were you not a lip sync assassin?
"Honestly, I have no idea."
Sophie laughs.
Let's watch. May the best Monarch... win!
~
Hello, my lip syncing Monarch's...
You all look ready to lip sync your butts off.
BUT FIRST...
It's not Drag Race without a little twist, hey?
Sophie smirks.
Bring back my Monarch's.
Our Final 4 Monarch's to be Ru-Vealed of The Season!
Suddenly, Robin Steele in a tight leather harness and short shorts, Mary Handy Tuck in a huge, delicately crafted perfeclty-ready for a Ru-Veal dress, Terri Toris in a beige jumpsuit, and Dr Daina Sora Drag Queen in a Black Inflatable Dinosaur suit all appear.
"Oh. My. GOD!" Melodrama yells.
My Final 4... Introduce yourself.
Robin smirks. "Hey babies. I'm Robin, last placed King of Season 8... Unfortunately."
Robin Steele: "I'm Robin Steele, and i'm the Daddy of Drag. My..." Robin ponders. "Grandmother died around the time of Season 8, and the reality was... I didn't meet the mark. But Daddy's back, and he's here to give a show. Always looking good, always moving... let's do this."
Mary waves. "Hello Children!"
Mary Handy-Tuck: "I'm Mary Handy Tuck, and I am ever so excited to be back! I'm a Queen who at her heart, loves how drag... brings people together. I've grown my roots since my season, and my family has allowed me to shine. I've returned to show the world... Mary is a force."
Terri smiles. "Hiiiii..."
Terri Toris: "I'm Terri! You'd know me from season 10 of Virtual Drag Race. On my season I... let my nerves get in the way. I know I had the talents, it was hard to just... show people. I think I've had time to reflect... work on myself... and now, I'm ready."
"RAWR!" Daina yells.
Dr Daina Sora Drag Queen: "The Doctor... is in! I'm the DINO QUEEN! And I now have a PHD!" Daina smiles. "On the season 9 premiere, I found.. not knowing to sew is a bad idea. I am here with a sewing needle in hand, and the spirit of the dinosaur, ready to take the crown."
I lied. They'll be 8 LIP SYNCS this episode.
Starting with our returning Monarch's... where one of them won't even get to the Bottom 6 Lip Sync.
"3... Eliminations." Lola smirks. "Sure."
We missed a category...
Rap. It. Up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QroUDtpnjn4&ab_channel=DeDeDon
Mary Handy-Tuck, Dr Daina Sora Drag Queen, Robin Steele and Terri Toris.
Prior to tonight, you were asked to prepare a lip sync performance to 'WAP' by Cardi B.
The time has come...
For you to lip sync. FOR YOU LIFE!
Good luck... and don't fuck it up!
THE LIP SYNC EXTRAVAGANZA BEGINS!
Terri Toris: "It's.... so scary to be back here. Lip syncing again... but I'm giving my all."
Dr Daina Sora Drag Queen: "I may not have won my last lip sync... but NEVER again! It's the season of the DINO!"
Mary Handy Tuck: "I know this isn't the song we expect... but... my oh my, this is going to be so much fun! I am going to give the funniest performance in my life. This is ever so fun!"
Robin Steele: "Daddy's here. I know how to give sexy."
~
Who wins our lip sync extravaganza lip syncs?
Spreadsheet
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2020.09.22 18:41 AnselEverdeen27 Wanted to explore my sexuality, when I realized I was doing it the wrong way, it was too late. 17 M.

I hope this is considered as rape.
I guess it was my fault. I wanted to explore my sexuality and was desperate to know how it feels to... you know. As a guy who lives in a country where the lgbtq+ community is illegalized, I never really got a chance to explore publicly. So I had to take the chances.
I went into Grindr.
This guy DM'ed me and told me to call him Daddy. Disgusting, I know. But the desperation made me do it. We chat a little bit and eventually he asked for my picture. I never send nude pics so I just sent him a normal picture of my liking. I asked for his, it took a while but he sent it to me eventually. He didn't look as 'angelic' as I hoped he would be but.. I wanted to lose my virginity.
He wanted to meet the next day at night and I agreed. He picked me up and I first saw him I realized he's more than just the guy I saw in his picture. He looks like a 50 year old.
On the way to his house, he told me that he has a wife and a son in university who's taking engineering while touching my thigh. I was uncomfortable and that feeling of regret starts to crept up to me.
Eventually, we reached his empty house and he brought me to a room. He closed the door and... he started to strip and I had only just started to take off my jacket before realizing how wrong this was.
I wanted to tell him that I wanna go home and that I don't want any part of this. I started with an "actually i-" before he interrupted me with a tongue kiss. It was disgusting, horrifying, it didn't feel like the beautiful kisses you'd see in the rom-coms or dramas. He tasted awful.
He took off my clothes and to skip the.. 'that' part all I have to say is that throughout the process, I begged for him stop. Told him I wanted to go home. He kept kissing every part of my body and I can't help but cringe in disgust at it.
When he finished - I didnt, if I must say - he told to get dress and he'll send me back home. Luckily I never told him where my actually house was. Because I'm planning to block this monster.
But during the drive to home, he talked nonsense about his neighbors and poor people... the normal shenanigans old people would talk about though I wasn't really listening, I was rather questioning myself and what I had done. I allowed this to happen. I entered his car. I had my first kiss with a dirty old man. I lost my virginity to him. Is he the monster? Or am i?
The moment he reached the streets near to my house and I pointed at a random house and told him dropped me off. Blocked him the moment he left the street. After that, I walked to my house. Slowly. Piles of questions in my head. After years of not allowing myself to cry ever again, I failed that night. I questioned my life, my sexuality, my sins... my existence. What have I done? Lucky I had a hoodie on.
When I got home, everyone was asleep so I immediately took a shower. And that shower was where I had my very first mental breakdown. I had a soap in my hand and I rubbed part of my body that he touched. I was dirty.. and was surprised that I was also bleeding. Of course. No wonder it hurt. I brushed my teeth a dozen of times and clean my face with every facial product I had. All that and I still feel dirty.
I can't tell this to anyone. I live in a country where it's illegal to explore my sexuality or accept it nonetheless. I'm this 5'0ft little guy who's about to face his exams and is always an optimist. I love to smile and help people and just be happy everyday. I'm a loud person and shy at the same time. After this? I don't know what to do. I don't think there's a therapy here. I'm scared. I'm scared to tell my friends, my family or my mother no less. She doesn't accept my sexuality when she caught me watching gay porn when I was 12.
I didn't like what he did to me and I'm starting to ask myself am I even gay? I look at my bestfriend who I had a crush on and is still have feelings for him. But I don't like the sex? I was scared. I don't know what to do with myself other than pretend this never happened and act normal. This isn't America, there isn't any freedom of speech. I probably won't have justice anytime soon. I was raped. And it made me feel... weak. All my pride, dignity and honor, stripped off me.
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2020.09.22 17:31 ApeironMisthios First Trip: Trip Report; Am I Insane?

I keep seeing some guys going in for their first trip and taking lower doses that I would take just so I could trip in public (high doses the anxiety kicks in. Learned that about me at a festival, but that's an entire series on its own) so I decided to share my own first trip. I'm not writing this to be cocky, moreso to educate and entertain(?).
So getting in to it, the drop setting was in my girlfriend's brothers house, but the trip itself had multiple settings causing multiple reality/universe shifts(?).
Times are not exact, exception is drop time.
5:00pm: Me and my girlfriend (we will call her R) head to her brothers (we will call him C). Three weeks prior I had tried changa and dmt for the first time and I still felt euphoric from the experience itself not the drugs, so when I entered the house I was hit with euphoric memories due to the distinct smell of Palo Santo. We sit and chat for a couple minutes, but me and R have been fasting for the last 24 hrs to get the full effects, keep in mind R hadn't even done mushrooms at this point just the changa and dmt. C got out the sheet of lsd which he was told it was blotted with roughly 150-165ugs per tab. For the whole week prior I prepared to take 2 tabs, in the very last second I asked C, "should I just drop all four?" His buddy from the living room said "take as much as you feel comfortable taking" so I thought about it I had taken 5 grams of very strong mushrooms fairly regular for about 6 months, i think i could handle 4 tabs of lsd (this is the cocky side of me that gets me in trouble all the damn time.) So R, C, and I stand in a circle and drop together. C was there as moral support and really wanted to do lsd again (it was only his second time). Then we put on Through the looking glass and I got through about 15-20 minutes of before my attention span just dropped. Like i mean i looked at my phone and put it down maybe 10 times in 3 minutes. So I said we should go for a walk. During the walk I started to feel some physical effects. C and R both wanted to go to this fort they built in the bush so we went there to find out it was take down but the area was still flattened so we chilled in there. While chilling there, I started to see things sparkle and get wavy, and we just chilled like one would in the bush high as fuck, we talked, we stared in amazement, until C pointed out that my face was shifting lots. And I looked at him and all of a sudden his face starts aging. Like i could point out exactly where he was going to get wrinkles , so I looked at R and said "yeet!! Your hot as fuck old" and we all busted out laughing. Some time went by but we have no idea how long because it was still light out but it was summer when our days are long. All of our phones were in my back pack but we hadn't even though about our phones till way later. We decided to leave the bush when we realized we were actually really close to fairly popular trail and people were looking at us weird in the bushes (2020 hindsight it was like 200 yards from a school...😬) We headed back to Cs place to kind of just replenish on water (which was also in my backpack but again never thought about it). By the time we had reached Cs place i was high, not just like high. But like my perception of reality, what I was hearing, didnt match up with the time of actual reality. For instance the moment we got to Cs place I was so high that I legit heard what I was saying before I said it. Not in my head but out loud which made it very hard to converse. Regardless we had decided to chill there for a bit so his roommate put on tunes and shit but I wanted to be with nature, so I went in to the backyard, and I laid in the long uncut grass running my hands through it. All of sudden Cs roommate came out side and stood over me looking to the back neighbors, and I knew it was him but in my head I suddenly realized he was a deity that didnt belong here and there was something special about him. Then he disappeared. Fast forward to midnight, mainly because I cant recall what happen from the grass to midnight. I only know it was midnight because R had looked at her phone and said it was midnight, but we had all agreed that it felt like an hour from sunrise. That was when time got fucky. Every now and then I would look at the clock and because of how strong my thoughts were I saw the clock earlier than it was because I mentally seen the time (its confusing shit). We decided to walk to our place which wa about a 30 minute walk and we chilled our place listening to the beatles and shit. And then magic happened. When I was 14 and smoked my first gravity bong I was listening to revolution 9 by the beatles and told my friends that I was gonna take acid for the first time and listen to this song/skit and here I was making shit become real (big thing considering I didnt even think about it, it just kinda happened, we were listening to blackbird and all of sudden it comes on.) C went by my smoke room where I smoke weed and he just said man this is a dirty room, and I was like yea I gotta clean it, but I got up to go look at it and when I saw it my mind flipped, I suddenly thought that I was a crack head but with pot.(I've always had issues with addiction in my past and I've built a dependence on weed) and I broke for a good hour where R had to come and talk me out of it. When I came back to Underland, I started to write random thoughts down considering the visuals faded the tiniest bit. And we just wrote and vibed with eachother for the rest of the night. C walked home and R went to sleep. I was high for the next 12 hours. I was high for 24 hours total.
If you have any pointers for the report let me know, if you enjoyed let me know, if you want more trip stories let me know. I've got a few stories over the past 7 years.
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